The Names that are written shall die...

RELINK. (:

2009-12-01T16:48:00.001+08:00

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For those who loves me, my "fans".

Here's a chance to catch up with me. =D

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Happy Stalking & Loving. =D

The Confessions...

2009-10-07T22:27:00.004+08:00

This will be a long one...
This few days... My heart just feels like it had been stabbed by
a knife so deep down... That it hurts so much..
I cried like there's no tomorrow.
I feel like just... God... I need you....
Allah... I know you're listening to me...
Please help me.....

I will start The Confessions...
Here...

I sat on a porch and hoped and prayed for all the hard things to stop.
I was forced to smile, but I never did, it was so hard that I fell & drop.
I think about you all the time whenever there's space and time.
I never thought I could fell in love with you when it was just a crush
in the beginning.. I went into a relationship knowing maybe there are no
chances for us being together so maybe that's one way I could forget you forever
but I didn't, the guy broke my heart it was worse than I thought..
Slowly I realize how much you mean to me and you are the one that I'm in
love with...
"I never thought I was falling in love again" that was what I've said before..
Oh, yes, not only your heart makes my mind wander but your eyes and the way you always look like you're deep in thoughts. It just made me feel so calm, secure and feel like you're the one for me.. But could there be any obstacles that are holding us back? Like our religion..? That's one thing and you're so committed to it while I'm devoted to mine.. Would there be a bearer? All awhile when I see you, my heart flung off and will ask me, what are the chances? And yes,its true I really want to know how you really feel about this, don't make reasons, my dear love, honesty works best in this kind of situation. Please, I'm begging you, Allah, I love him.. Tell me, why did you make me fell in love with this guy.
"Just kept in wondering why & why..." I kept on wondering..
You know you're the only guy who told me you was proud on how daring I was to tell you, that I had feelings for you. The guy who called me straight when I just sms 'I need someone to talk to' , unlike my ex who called me only 7 hours later.
The way you console me on the phone, how it hit me pretty hard and felt like I wish you were there with me so I can hug you and never let you go.. Allah, why did you me through like this... First was El-turn and now this new guy.. Why..??
I can't stop thinking about him.. The way you teach me songs on that guitar and the way you sang the song to me... And still I remembered how cold you were at time.. You ignore me and treated all other girls better and I still love you just the way you are.. God knows it, my love.. How hard it was to be a lady.. When she knows that she's loving a man that is far beyond her reach, something out of her stand.. But why did she go on..? Loving this man, on & on..? Because she believes that as long there is love there is still hope.. I believe in that, and will always still.
As life passes by slowly, I was giving up on him, not when I came across the phrase that I've mentioned above.. That changes my whole view. I see a new perspective. I thought about you again & again.. The times that we use to crap on the smses when you use to call me lame all the time and that will only happen when I use the word Magic.. Haha! Bring back memories huh..? You see... I just can't look into your eyes anymore.. Not like the past.. When I use to still like you... Just give you a look and we would be exchanging smiles.. You're leaving soon.. And I know I don't deserve your love even though your the only one I'm thinking of.. Maybe..
One day you'll a find your perfect girl.. The one that suits you in every view... But no matter what... I just wanna tell you....
Mr D..... I Love You......

Yes, its true you might say that I'm brave enough to just face him and say that I like him.. But this confessions.. I can't..
This is not about bravery... This is reality.. And I bet he knows it already....

~ Whisper to me Answers to it, Allah... ~
Amin....

Only Allah Knows My Sufferings.

2009-06-30T21:38:00.002+08:00

I went back home.
Stare the ceiling, looking at the sky paint
my house had.
I wonder who else hears my pain.
Glad, happy?
Yes, I believe people will start to go to me and say
"Why are you in pain?"
"Why didn't you share it with me?"
One thing I will ONLY answer...
The pain that only God can understand those words I can't spill.
The feeling I can't describe..

But after I watch alot of different kind of shows.
Showing me different kind of lives..
I learnt alot.
You know even cartoons teaches me what really life is all about.
Look back in the past, the bad and the good ones.
what have you learnt..?
What made you what you are now..?
I believe in failing.
Yes. That makes you think, learnt. Succeed in what you failed before.
But if you don't, its your lost. Cuz its your game.
I definitely learnt alot.
And I'm writing this out to share what I felt.

You know most common phrases people love to say it around like,
"Expect the Unexpected"
"Success comes by failure"
"Believe In Yourself In Order to Succeed"
"Visions without action, is just dreams. Actions without visions is just waste of time. But Visions with actions changes the world."

Is what you hear everyday.
But I got this. Its not by me.
But read it... Feel and think about it..

"If I am not for myself, who will be for me?
If I am not for others, what am I?
And if not now, when?"
~ Rabbi Hillel

"Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. This day is all that is good and fair. It is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterdays."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Inspiration does not come from the quote itself, but rather the person behind it."
~Russ Myers

After all pain I face.
I slowly learnt.
You need pain, to be stronger. To learn.
You need to fail to succeed. To learn.

During A Journey. Any journey.
Take Note of the place,time,people,weather, just everything. Especially YOURSELF.
Cuz what matters.
How did you get to the place?
What time was it? Morning, afternoon? Night? Times of Suffering? Pain? Sorrow..?
Who was involve? How were they? Nice? Were they supporting you?
Weather? Wonder why the weather plays a part?
cuz it shows how you handle the situation? How you endure it.
Jus imagine you got lost in the forest and it was raining heavily.
It testes you. And imagine you were with a companion.
You have to look after him/her. It will let out you character, compassion.
Even commitment in continuing the journey.

Now what I've learnt.
Yes, pain. After all.
Don't depend on people to much. Evn your family.
Cuz they are only there to support.
Look back at times when you were small.
Count how many times you fall. And how many times there were hands infront of you
helping you to get up?
You will realise you get up by yourself more than ppl helping out.
}But if not. You got to back up. Can't live forever like this..
Cuz when you die, you die alone. Your life. Your story. You're th main cast.
Wrong dialogue, wrong story line. Wrong act, you screw up.
so think men..
this is what I wanna share..
What i've learnt.

"People said that think 10 steps ahead for your future its good.
I say, no.
I say, Think about the first step that you gonna take to go to the tenth.
Cuz if you step wrongly the first, the other 9, you will fall. "
~ Myself ~

Something Inspirational.

2009-06-11T22:25:00.003+08:00

I saw this video.
I felt something about..
I Love what the old man said.
It struck me a million arrows men.
Inspires me. When I LOVE MUSIC & ART sooo much.
I wanna master piano & guitar.

Just look at what the old man says to the kid when she asked him.

"Why Am I Different From The Others...?"
I think the lady who bullied her, the one can play piano.
Can't even play it properly.. Lol..
Not trying to act big, But i think even my small bro can play better. =P

Yeah.. haha. Its a commercial on a Shampoo.
But its a good one for those who less fortunate to play music.
Don't underestimate them.
This is what I call talent...
PURE talent... ;)

Watch this.

Sigh.
I'll be a good Guitarist & A Pianist one fine day.
I'll bring all my loved ones to watch a performance I made specially
for them.. =)
Even my friends. ^^

God.. Im sooooo into Music & Arts.
I just LOVE IT.
=D

Okok. I wanna make a song right now..
=) Shall dismiss myself. Haha. =)

Kkays.
^-^

~ "Why Do You Have To Be Like The Others?" ~
=)

Twilight? New Moon?

2009-06-05T16:30:00.003+08:00

Yeah.
I'm A MANIAC OF TWILIGHT SAGA.
Yes, haha.

You know why I like it?
It resembles on whats going on right now..
again.
Like his the Edward and I' the Bella.
The first day of Sec 3 life is like I've just got transfer to
a new school.
With new classmates and stuffs.
And thats when I saw him...
Yes, him..
we got those weird gaze on at each other and stuffs.
Sigh...
and yadayadayada.
But we didnt went together thats the BIG difference.

And in New Moon.
like recently..
He disappeared suddnly, didnt reply my msgs, didnt smile at me..
didnt even look at me, not even an inch glance.
he gave a reason...
Its because of His "OWL". those who watch harry potter get what I mean.
And when he's gone...
Someone else was there for me...
Sighh...

UGHHH....
And now during June,
he was there in the beginning... And now he's gone...
And he's back..
Im not saying he's bad..
& I dont care what anyone else wanna say about him...

Cause I just love the way he is.. =)

I'm back obsessed in THE TWILIGHT SAGA. =P
Sigh... but Im still sad about it....
Dont think I have hope with...
I dont deserve him.. He's too good for me..
But Thank God, you let me get to know him.. =)

~ GoodBye...

ALAS! It's Over.

2009-06-04T23:06:00.002+08:00

Yes. After decades of not posting and updating about my shitty life.
Gonna tell ya guys, I did survive!
This bloody two days courses.
That made me dreamt about beautiful dying horses.

SHUTS men.
Seriously.
Sigh. I'm pissed with that skin on top that I've just changed!
ITS BLUR!
I DUNNO WHY IT DID WORK THIS TIME!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

ok cut it out.
ughh.
Yeah. Tired, yes?
Sleepy, no?
God..

I planned to post something again..
Something most of my readers would know about me.
Something that I do, that could make me happy.
HEre it Goes again.
This is about what happened in the past and whats im gonna do now..

Seems like yesterday we use to rock the flow,
I lace the tracks you got the door,
and,
my life is what now you see,
this is no fun, this is reality.
What I do is what I present,
what I like, I just dont need your consent.
Reminisce sometime, when the thrash my story,
walking alone in their streets of glory.

And right now, I stopped, Im not dumb, Im not stupid.
Im not being harass or push around by those love cupids.
I got one purpose in life.
And that is to survive.
Im ignorin' all those bastards and bitches.
Thats hatin' me with all those face-switches!

I got one thing to say,
If you dont like me in a way.
And I would just call it your day.
Your day of me making it "sway".
I would appreciate if you said it up front.
Dont be shock, and Dont be stunned.
Cuz if u insisted,
I'm gonna cock it and shoot you with my gun.
Haha..

Im damn bored right now,
spillin' shits somehow.
Drowsy, tired, lets take a bow
As the show is over right now.
OW OW.

Gosh.. Im DAMNNN Bored......
hahaha.

DAMMIT.

SAY IT.

FORGET IT.

I MISSSSSSSSSSS SLeepin. =PP

Off.. ~~

My Last Requiem For A Dream.

2009-05-05T19:00:00.002+08:00

A CHOREOGRAPHER.
A PIANIST.
An ARTIST.
An AUTHOR.
BASICALLY.

ANYTHING GOT TO DO WITH ART AND MUSIC.

Hip-Hop's my life. Seriously.

This is it.

This is My Last Requiem For A Dream.
No one is ever to INTERFERE.
DO NOT INTERFERE.
I WARNED YOU.

I can even KILL YOU IF YOU DO THAT.
I'm not JOKING.
I'm WAY SERIOUS.

Yes....
This is me......
This is it...

THIS JOURNEY OF BEING AND KNOWING WHO I REALLY AM.
IS EVERYTHING to ME.

Get away from stepping in.
If you wanna help,
you better tell me where have you been.
If you have any intentions.
to destroy my temptations.
your life's gonna have convulsion.
and its up to my sensation.
to put you through the misery.
cause you have thrown away what i see.

get it..?

Something made me realize.
this is not what i fantasize.
this is gonna be a reality.
This is what I'M GONNA BE.

OFF.

I lost this time round.

2009-05-03T21:54:00.004+08:00

Hey Aisyah.
Thanks for being there when I'm emo just now.
Seriously girl, thank you for it yeah...
I really dunno what to do if I hadn't got you.
Thanks for being my best friend.
I love you men.
Take care always yeah sis?
Love ya.

P.S : I'll change my cover to the pics that we took. love ya sis!
Ayu your pathetic best friend. =)

This is for Jay.
Jay...
Please.
This is driving me insane.
Just one more. Without you I can't function no more.
I just can't step out of my front door.
I can't do what I need to do.
I can't be who am I.
Hardest thing about this confession is I just ruin what we have, But I don't wanna lose what we got
But it's a chance I'll have to take, pleasee...
Don't wanna spend my whole life wonderin' what it feels like
Bein' there beside you and kissin' on you all night

This is something I wanna rhyme about.
Remember I said i'm gonna make a song for you?
This is one of em.
Here goes noth..

[verse 1]
See I been makin' a mistake.. oh no.....
ohh god.. just give me one chance.
im pleadin you.. im holding this pain,
even when I walked out of the door.

I just can't breathe the moment you said,
"I'm sorry"
I can't forgive myself for the mistake i've made,
even tho you said you still wanna see me happy.
i'll be only happy,
when you're with me.

[chorus]
lets dont talk about where are we.
lets talk about you & me.
oh baby, oh please.
im begging you, this pain is like a disease.
i need the cure ,
and that'll be your,
your laughter, your voice, your smiles,
I dont care how far we are in miles.
right now
what i needed the most somehow.
is you.
Just give me one more chance.
just give me one more chance.
to prove to you that i love you.

[verse 2]
baby, i can't afford to be the one who hurts you.
i can't afford to lose you.
but why this has to happen.
when i've fallen.
for someone who's like a my guardian angel.
when i've fallen.
for someone who knows how to love a girl.
and make her feel this place is like a wonderful world.

[chorus]

please dont say that. i need you..
right now..
one more chance. just one more..
i wanna see like what we are before...
just like before..

[End]

I listen to the song that you dedicated for me.
I remembered this...

~You like surprises..
I like you..~

Sigh...
i just dunno what to do..

love you...

P.S: My GameMaster, I'll put your design into my collage also. i will always love ya hun.

Off....

Roses? Ohmygod!!

2009-04-18T08:32:00.002+08:00

Ok, I saw this post on Si Hui's Blog.
And I go. Ohmygod!!
hehe.
This was it.
And It was actually true.
I gave someone A Rose.
And A definitely means ONE!
And so this is.
They saw if ONE rose means.
Love at First Sight & You're the one!

HOLI MAMA!

THIS GOT TO BE NUTS.
But He still dunno who gave it to him.. Hahah..

Sad case.
But WAIT.
MAYBE he know.
Or MAYBE not.
MAYBE some1 told him.
Or MAYBE not.

MAYBE he figured out alr.
Or MAYBE not.
MAYBE he does know that its actually from me.
Or MAYBE not.

I DUNNOOOOO!

OKAY.

CIAOS.

Sick, Much?

2009-04-16T15:22:00.002+08:00

Ergh.
I'm SICK.
Sigh. I can't say anything. But I'm happy
that I coul still smile and have fun in school with my teachers and friends.
It gave me no harm. Except my throat is killing me.
ERGHHH.
Drowsy baby.
Lol.
Yep,I couldnt take it. But neh-beh-mine. I'm Strong! WOOHOO!
ARM STRONG!
Say it with me! ARM STRONG ARM STRONG!
ok ok.. Cut the chase.
Hmm.
School was fine.
Again, I think Chemistry is FUN!
Physics FUNNIER!
Maths is EASY.
Humanities is PEAS-Y!
Trust me. I love Humanities but I can't score well in it.
Like what??
Ok ok.

Soso. My studies are fine.
Gonna study soon. hehe.
Orh, I really wanna go to TBG 09!
UWAHH!
Master Classes will cost me $35 per pax.
I'm going or Mass Master Workshop! Woo! $50 per pax.
But I'm able to go in free! WEEEE~~~
ehehhee..
P) *Pirate face*

Okies. I wanna go play guitar,piano,xbox,computer(again),ps2,psp,handphone,and all kinds of stuffs.

Only.
AFTER
I study.
Sigh.
If it wouldn't because of Mid-Year.
I would be spending time with my *husbands.
(*As mention above. e.g,HP,PSP,COMPUTER,PIANO,GUITAR!)

OK OK.

I shallllllllll.....
Study...
After my sleep.
Ew. I'm exhuasted much.

And yes.

Sick, Much?
Kkays!
I'm done blogging.
Shall go off now! =D

Off~
Saphira N.Idayu A.K.A ~ [ N-Se7eN ] ~

Sigh, Inspirational, Yes? | Purpose or Plain Actions?

2009-04-09T18:56:00.003+08:00

Declamation.
2nd Place. Thats Enough.
=) it was a good one tho i was trembling badly.
haha.. =P oh well. Jerome thanks for the support.
You gave me alot of encouragement back at the stage.
Love ya bro. hahaha. =P

Jerome a.k.a Napolean Bornaparte.
Sheryl a.k.a Mother Theresa.
Grace a.k.a Hamlet.
Maia a.k.a Patrick (Somethingsomething. I forget >.<)
Jovan a.k.a (Oops forget)
I forget his name a.k.a I forget his role.
Hamkama a.k.a Indra Ghandi.
and Myself a.k.a Aung San Suu Kyi.

HAHHA. NICE JOB PEOPLE! ^^

Beatty Idol Auditions.
Lyrics gone, yes?
Forgetting.
Haha. Nice much. Its ok. Let join for fun.
No intensions to win. Just to feel like
a errrghh..
No words to describe it.
Maybe just enjoying it. And feel like a SUperstaR! =P
Forget it. =.=

Find NPCC previously was a great one. I like it this way. We do things in a more firm and reasonable way not like *treating-you-guys-like-dogs-situation*. This is definitely way better.
The inspiration to be back often in NPPC is cause of Mr Eugene Ang and Ms Fauziah.
Maybe specially Mr Ang. He gave me the inspiration to go NPCC once more.
And Ms Fauziah for making me a better person now. She made me realise some stuffs.
Yes. Both teachers have changed me. And I'm happy with that. =DD
WOOHOO!
Sigh, Inspirational, Yes?
Yes.
Don't ask me why. That is to be kept. =D

Oh well.
After audition went home with Daniel and company. Sorry I dunno his name. >.<
We were like stressing out about the thingy. Daniel's even stresser.
If there's such word.
Haha.. Seriously, I've told him countless times that his one of e good singers
in Beatty. He wouldn't believe me. right... o.O

Well then after that. Someone prompt question like so, ERGH. Not in a disgusting way but annoying and much.
I know someone's attitude is a floccinaucinihilpilification to think about it.
But in a fact that its
Purpose or Plain Actions?

Hmm... Lets ignore it. At least we're friends. And thats good enough.
Nothing more. =))

Ugh. haha..
I'm back in my normal mood. No more dark.
Something came up but im still in it i guess.
I dunno.
It doesn't seem matter.
And it doesn't seem right.
But lets just ignore it.
So forget it haha.

Ergh. UWAHHHH. =X

House of Night.

2009-04-05T21:13:00.001+08:00

Whatever you see me as now.
whatever I mistaken or say.

Do not say or warn me about it.

Just.. Shhh..

Heaven Sent.

2009-04-04T09:49:00.003+08:00

For my bestfriend.
I won't neglect our friendship aite.
You'll be the best of friends I ever have. So cheer up. =)
Love ya sis.

I stopped by library yesterday.
Took some self-improvement books just to recap.
I remembered.
I saw.
I felt.
I heard.
Everything about FZED.

During recess,
saw, spoke to FZED.
Dunno. How much I ____ him.
How much I _____ talking to him.
sigh.

I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from

Sent from Heaven.

Oh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
And you can't help who you love
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love..

I wanna be the one you love.
I wanna be the one you trust.
I wanna be the one you need.
I wanna be the one thats sent from heaven.
Just for you..
I've fallen for you.
I've moved on with my previous lover.
and now you've stolen my heart..

Sigh..
Getting to know the possibilty.
Getting to know that this is reality.
Im happy when you're happy.
If there's anyone elses that you love.
I'll let it be.

Goodbye..~

Love you FZED...

Back Again.

2009-03-28T19:13:00.002+08:00

The trip back wasn't a welcoming one at all.

I walked back home alone having those words that he said cycle through my head feeling the pain again and again.
When I was wondering the obvious of the obvious.
I looked at the time, I called my parents.
Again. No one bothered to pick up.

Alone now. Stuck here in this room. Dark condition.
Not caring about anything around me.
I broke most of the stuffs at home.
By just a touch.
I'm exhausted. My legs are aching shit.

The camp. Was difinitely a wonderful and memoriable one.
Along the camp. I got upset most of the time cause of someone.
I wanted someone to smile but instead, a total change of face expression
when that person saw my presence there at the moment.
I wondered.
Isit because the person's upset too.
Or isit because the person saw me with someone else and thought that that someone elses was my lover?

I saw the practicals and I saw both sides theories.
I know mine. And I learnt theirs.
Both theories is unexpected but obviously obvious.

I stucked myself up in my theories and my mates assumptions.
Its just that I wanted to know the truth.
I don't want any Secrets between close ones.
I love everyone. Including the person I'm talking about.
Maybe I love him the most?
Maybe I love some others the same way too.
Its just that. I'm not showing attitude.
I don't want to be too emotional.
But somehow, I know.
And I just don't like it, if its been hid away for some reasons.

off.

Party To Dasmacus.

The Present.

2009-03-22T22:21:00.003+08:00

I've changed.
Drastically.
Again I'll repeat. Don't ask.

Recently. Comp was fine. We didn't made it. So what,
as long as my team mates had that experience. Had the opportunity
to the open. We had fun within our team and thats enough.
Thats..Enough..

There's something bothering me..
Not some. A thing.

Honestly, I want to be alone more just after school.
Be there where we belong, me and my family.

Sigh.. Lets just keep that one to myself..

Life isn't fair.
So just beware.
Living Impaired.
Differently Biotic.
Living in Despair.
We aren't psychotic.

We, different people with different minds.
With different beliefs and diffrent signs.
Also, different religions and different opinions.
Different pesonalities and different type of assumptions.

We as different and every unique self has the need and the must
to respect other beliefs and others minds.
We do not have th rights to destroy or to insult those
differently biotic people.
We must not offend anything that does not belong to us or those
that does not belong to us.
Thus, its all about RESPECT.

Even some of us might not belong here or not up to your likings.
We have our own unique self. And we do respect others and stuffs
like that. So understand.
And respect.

Keep to yourself who, those that are known.
Thy, the soul and spirit may no companion to us.
But living in believing others and oneself,
will leave us to light from darkness.

Something you all got to take note.
Not all the time Light is the source of Good.
And not all the time Darkness is the source of Evil.
There's Vice-Versa. So all you got to do is go with the flow.
Aprreciate one and other differently biotics presence in life.

Off.~

The Present.
Confusion.

-----------------------------------------

The Past.

2009-03-16T20:11:00.002+08:00

This morning was fine..
I saw someone looked very familiar to me..
Very. He was in the same time staring at me.
Same way I was doing that at him too.
We was at that United Square Challenger.
He works there. forget it.

Oh well.
Then went back to school to get the Compass Parts paper
from Yi Lin. And Sheila heard me so she was shouting for me.
ZZ. So I chill for awhile with them.
Felt great tho.
After that head for the library to meet Ching Na.
Thats where I decided to borrow books.
But can't,too much fine. Sigh.

So we left for Fork & Spoon.
Did some revision there and left for Night Market.
Which we commonly call it. Pasar malam.
=_=

great.

After that. Noth much happened. Left for home.
While I was walking home I remembered all the past.

Everything. Just right when I step into this puddle in the rain.
Alone again.
I saw them.
Don't ask me who.
They smiled at me, just returned one and went away as fast as could.

They was complacent and he was reluctant.
I heard em.
Too loud I suppose.
Just too loud.
I stop by and finally reached home.

The things are getting worse.
But I believe I can overcome it.
But this has to stop.

It Has To End.

And I'll do it.

Off.

Got bored.

2009-03-15T21:05:00.002+08:00

I just got bored and I finish some admin stuffs I had to do for NPCC.
Well. Other than that.
I saw Ching Na's blog today. So I decided to do something about the quizzes.
They looked interesting.
So I tried some out and thought of posting it at my blog too.
So just have a look aite.
Whats stated is probably like the real me. So yep.

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Where Your life is Going You are a very determined and willful individual. You have strong set goals that you plan to reach no matter what. You may be an overachiever at times but that's because you want to be successful in your life. The greatest accomplishment for you is when you reach a high goal. However, you constantly worry if you're not good enough to do something, or if your life doesn't go according to plan. You worry a lot about your future, and if it will meet all your high criteria. Don't worry, with your determination, and hard work ethic, and organization chances are things will go according to plan.
Commitment
Losing Someone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Being Alone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What's your inner element Your Result: water You are a cool person. You may love fishing and swimming. You go with the flow and don't get impationt. You may not be too popular, but that's okay. You care about others and want the best for them.
air
fire
earth
What's your inner element Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I took this I got a little high. But I don't think so.
But in any fact, its just for fun. haha.
Sigh.. I hope its true tho..

Does He Like Me? Your Result: he likes you he sorta likes you, but doesnt really want anyone to know. he still thinks he needs to get to know you a little more, but really wants to. go after him... and anything can happen! enjoy.
he crushes over you... =)
He Loves You GIRL!!
He is in Head Over Heals MAD Love for YOU!
he thinks your a total DOPE
Does He Like Me? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Again for fun. No harm done right..?
haha...

does he like you (very accurate) Your Result: Let's just say I'm suprised you guys arent dating. Based on the answer you have choosen it's pretty clear that he is head over heels for you, when people come up with exscuses every second they get just to talk to you, it means they completly like you, congradulations.
He's got a thing for you, he's just a little shy.
It's his loss, not yours.
does he like you (very accurate) Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

God. This is shit.
I'm not THAT Beautiful.
I'm just an average. =_=

How goodlooking of a girl are you? Your Result: Beauty Goddess You are no doubt the most beautiful girl that ever walked the face of this planet. Everything about your appearance is flawless and you make men and women feel the need to worship you.
Pretty Girl
Not a beauty queen....
Room for improvement
How goodlooking of a girl are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What element of the nature are you? Your Result: Sun The orb of light that breaks down diversity; you are a cheerful and active person. You care deeply for your loved ones, and are willing to do anything for them. You brighten things up and make others happy.
Rain
Mist
Cloud
Sky
Storm
Thunder
What element of the nature are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I wont comment much on this.. Some of you know it alr..

COOL. You got: 72%

OH! MAN< You are good. You have almost complete control over your powers. You probably focus and practice on your powers, strengthening them each time you use them. If you don't, things come naturaly to you! DOn't give up! Your powers can be better!
These powers can include psychic abilities, disquises, getting along with animals, reikii, super intelligence or strength or energy, and chii!

What Real World Powers Do YOU Have?
Take More Quizzes

Believe me. This is true...

My inner superpower. Your Result: empath You can feel emotions from other people. You are a very caring person and you don't want to see people get hurt. Friends may come to you for advice, because you know a lot.
healer
electricity
super strength
telekinisis/telepath
My inner superpower. Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I can't say anything. I'm him. haha...
Love him. FOREVER HIM.

Best Twilight Personality Quiz Your Result: Edward Cullen You are most like Edward. You have been through a lot, but put the past behind you. You try to make the best out of everything you do and are very strong in dealing with difficult situations. You are also very smart, patient, and charismatic. You will do anything to protect the ones you love. Plus, you're like the best looking person ever :)
Jacob Black
Jasper Hale
Bella Swan
Alice Cullen
Jessica Stanley
Emmett Cullen
Rosalie Hale
Best Twilight Personality Quiz Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

ok ok. i think thats all for now.
Its kinda fun tho. haha. shall take more soon. =P

off.. out of town once more..

Now That You're Gone..

2009-03-14T09:44:00.003+08:00

Recently went chillin' out with
Daniel, Author, Wen Ting, Chang Wei, with Winnie, Wen Qing and Atikah they all.
There are more tho. But aren't too sure what their names are. heh..
Yep. It was nice tho.
At least I learn something, still owe a song for someone to listen to when sch re-opens.. lol..

yeah.
someone's gone.
got upset tho I've forgotten to give someone his card.
argh!
forget it.
when i'm sec 5 then his back.. yeah.. great..
heh..
He's like my brother alr.
Someone who I held close like a part of the family.
one of the friends I had that I could trust.
sigh..

Now.. I've fallen for someone.
Thats out of the story.
Honestly speaking.
I dislike people who dunno a single thing bout me and my life then when I began to do something, that person wants to kpo and disturb it.
I also dislike people who wants something and they get it through me.
Self- hardwork dude. Seriously.
I'm not your weapon. I'm just a normal human being.
I myself dislike doing the same action and therefore I expect it the same way for some of you. You guys really need to back up and do it yourself.
But for those who I said I would help. I will help.
Thats all.

Ok back to the topic.
Now that you're gone bro. I have noth to say.
I've fallen for this guy. I wouldn't want it to be a hurtful way.
I know and I heard what people was saying.
Stop it.
I had enough of hearing what people said.
When I dont force it but i just do hear it.
I wont do what you guys ask me to do.
I wont listen.

Today, I had a walk down the block when it was breaking dawn.
It was raining though.
I reminisce the past I had.
The happy ones and the bad.
After everything I've gone through for now.
I remembered bout some stuffs somehow.
I'm no more afraid to be alone.

There was three things I was absolutely positive.

First, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

Second, I wasn't afraid of anything anymore & I've planned a new life ahead.

Third, Its true I wasn't afraid of anything anymore but except one.

~|I'm afriad of losing you..|~

I remembered I've all the time I want to do my stuffs.
But is there any time I could do something with you?
Maybe even just to sit and look at the night sky for one night.
Maybe even just to hear your voice everytime I said hi.
To just smile even though how painful is to bring up one when I know
there's no chance at all cause we're two different things.

But even just if you look again at me like how you did the other time.
Right in front of me, that look, when our faces was just a few centimetres away.
If its impossible then show me cause I feel your pain when I look in yours,
and I know you feel mine cause It was too obvious for you.

Shuts.
Once again. I'm emo as usual.
Nothing I could say. Cause everyday, even there's something happy happened to me.
Behind those happiness I see real pain.
Thats why there was only little happiness gain.
Sigh..

What If all of you know the real thing about me.
What If my friends know about it too.
And what If knowing about me, you eventually did too.

I frozed. I looked at the time.
Maybe I should leave.
Anyways. I won't be around for some days.
I'm out of town.
So maybe It'll be a little of some time alone.
Anything.
Do not contact me.

Off..

Update? Or For Fun?

2009-02-28T21:56:00.001+08:00

I've no idea what I'm suppose to post. lol.
Good thing tho. I'm so exhuasted.
Geok Teng. I'll link you soon. =)

Kkays!
Go then.
Just came back from chilling out.
God!
Heh!

The Pic? The Pain?!

2009-02-26T22:38:00.001+08:00

HeyHey.
People. Thats not Daniel at my blogskin.
Alot of people out there thought thats him.
Nono. I wont put someone I know in school
as my blogskin cover ay. Thats bad.
Sigh..
Cant you guys see. the features is total diff. haha.
I'm not blaming my godbro. (Arwens) hehe.
He knows about it. lol.
And yeah.
If Daniel happened to read this.
Yo. Sorry hor, if it looks like ya.
hahha. Just someone I find attractive and mysterious
thats why.. haha.
Lol. Other than that. I'm saying this again.
Its Not Daniel. Thank you. =_=

So the girls out there. STOP PESTURING ME. zzz.
Zzz. Its pretty annoying ya know.

Ok ok. Err.
today. hmm. assembly really gross me out and made me speechless.
THAT was SOO Disgusting.

Ok.. Forget about it.
Oh wells. Noth much today.
the school today said that they're paying for me to go to the camp.
Shit. MUST I STILL GO?
Damn. nevermind.
And yeah.
Recently.
My Docter. Who knows about my Family in a sense of who we are.
Told me I had to stop consuming those stuffs. =_=
Shit. Whatever.
And my hormones changing. therefore.

*CENSORED!*

Ok. tomorrow's parade.
again. parade.
nevermind.
i shall voice out tomorrow.

aite.
im _____ to smile everytime i feel ____.
s'ok.
Hey Clara. Smile okay.
Andi you too.
The pain you're facing.
Is the pain I feel before. So I know how it feels like.
Dont worry.
Like I've said before.

A strong heart will only experience true happiness.
=)

A Brave Move. & A Mistake. I Had Made.

2009-02-24T22:31:00.001+08:00

Once. Again.
I shall repeat this..
YOU FUCKING DUNNO ABT ME. SHUT THE FUCK UP & STOP GUDGING.
Thank you. It really pisses me..
Sigh..
Im writing this in Jap.
So up to you. Haha.. No text translator. Sad la.
Cant see the text. Sad la..
Haha.. Only for those who good in Jap..
But if you were to translate. It might be different from what I've written.

私は間違いをした。私の親友に溝を堀ることによって。
私は感じを取ることができない。その公正それ。
私は私が彼女に話す度に得たり従って追いついた。
彼女が述べなければならないその女の子の名前。
私は私が彼女にもう特別ではないことに感じた。
彼女は私に私が今でも彼女の親友であるという理由を与えた。
それは実際に彼女が彼女の名前を言い続けるとき私を離れて引き裂いた。
これはレズビアンの状態ではない。しかし友人。
そして私の家族はずっと私でこのとても態度を与えている。
神! 私はそれらを愛することを私することができるこの人々に知らせるために何が。それは私を深く中傷つける。
ため息。なぜか。

神なら、(アラー)。これの私を助けることができる。
実際に私は立つ勇気を与えることができ、皆にそれらは私へ言うために何かである。
そして私はそれらを傷つけることを意味しない。苦痛にもかかわらず私は直面している。私からのそれらへの愛は最初に来る。
私はまだ彼を愛する。そして私は新しいクラッシュを有している。
その私の感じが変わったことを知るためにまた私を傷つけること。
私はちょうど孤独に感じた。私の友人はずっと私へたわごとである。
しかしすべて。いくつか。これは私が期待したものではない。
原料はゆっくり殺害私である。一日一日と。

私は私でその信頼を必要とする。私は自分自身を必要とする。
私ができることを信じるため。
時々。私は私が実際にできることを信じるために単独で歩かなければならない。時々私は私を通って行く何もないことを考えた。しかし時私が過去を考える。私が感じた今何に。
私がいかに考えるか。私が私の未来をようにいかにが置いているかある。
私はだれでももう傷つけようとは思っていない。
No. 決して。私が。その公正な殺害私少しずつ。
私が感じた孤独。水から魚のように感じられる私。
私は私が知るのが常であった母を失った。私は私が過された楽しみの時間に使用するより古い姉妹を逃す。私は私があるべきである考えたが彼が粗悪品であること父を失った。
しかし私はまだ愛するには私がだれのためのであるか十分に幸運持っている私をできる弟をである。ちょうど誰か。愛するため私にあるものがのためのか私がだれのためのであるが、ない私を。

友人は利点を持つ友人のように私を作る。
彼らは認めない。私は従ってだけであることの使用されてある。
単独でつらい時で。私は実現すること。私は独立していい。
私は独立者にほしい。何人かの人々と混合する場合の傷つける原因。どういうわけか。
私はまだそれらを愛する。。

I made the move.
I made this mistake.
I've hurt the ones.
& thats gonna make my life at stake.

I finally realise that you were the one.
But I was wrong.
Forgive me.

At last I've realise. Not everything is Nice.
~OfF~

Where I Spill Every Single Feeling I Had...

2009-02-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

Yes. Im an EMO.
Happy? I can't stand whats happening around here.
I'm glad I could still bring smiles at those faces that
I longed been loving em.
One thing I felt. One thing I saw. The only one thing I've heard.
Im not being appreciated. Im not being known after all the hard work.
No one loves my presence. Except a few. Thats if its true.
Its really making me falling out from everything im doing right now.

What power has love but forgiveness.
In other words by its intervention.
What has been done can be undone.
What good is it otherwise..?

Sigh. Im starting it again. I'm rapping out to let people know my pain.
tomorrows test. im not having any rest.
cause tonight will be the night.. im going out.. to find my happiness
sight. but instead. i thought i should stay. should not run away.
let the pain stain my heart. so i know.. why im really falling apart.
Some friends are arent like friends no more.
they have show me who they really are and pushed me out of the door.
love is another complication. a sensation. which i need my own protection.
to love ones loved by most. to be heartborken thousand times by the real cost.
to know that he wont be mine. to know thats there's alot of signs.
3 years love. now with A year another crush.
i took the dtour at that curve. hoping to see them so much.
but when i reached at the other end.
it was another test God sent.
family is the one i need. they're the ones who can lead me to succeed
in anything i do. mum,dad,sis,bro(s), do you guys know that i truely love you?
let me ask this, why's that ive got diss.
everytime i need one. there's none.
this song sung by Keshia Cole, with the title Falling Out.
Is stuck in my head and i dont feel like screaming but just to shout.
why's this happening. again & again.
the pain.
no one understands.

now is about me.
about why im not happy.
lets start with friends. the ones i can no longer depend. on.
anything. even a little thing. they're just having this ego shit thingy.
which makes them think " I AM KING ".
God. there's no longer a way I could made them realise.
Ive no rights either. Its their life. So I shall not bother.
But in anything anyone do.
No worries.
You're forgiven.
Just left memories.
that are left to be written.
down. in my history book.
with four chapters that i took.
Chapter 1. Friends - good thing ive got only a few.
Chapter 2. Love - I dont know what I should do. cause i love you too.
Chapter 3. Family - I need you guys.
Chapter 4. Myself - I'm lost in my FUCKING paradise.

But please you guys.. I really appreciate some of you out there who's always
been there for me.. But i need to see. That you guys are really beggin me to stay.
or not. Im planning to walk away..
cause im really slowy falling..
i hope you guys know what im talking..
cause there's this big secret im gonna tell..
im not what you see in your eyes.
im not a liar who's trying to be someone else in disguise.
im not someone who you could take it easily..
cause i can tell you.. that im not even those funny joker and crazy.
If only..
if..
only..

sigh.. just dont let pride get into your way guys..
that just dont work.
there's nothing you can buy.
cause its just gonna make you ended up looking like a jerk..

im stopping here right now..
somehow..
im gonna let go..
whats real..
whats for show..
not whats for sale..
but the things that i should do.
like telling all of you no matter what.
im still loving you.

goodbye..

p.s: Haru Haru...

Valentine's Day? Am I Still In Love? But With Who?

2009-02-15T20:24:00.005+08:00

FINALLY.
Finish Editing.
Oh god. My Valentine's Day was wonderful.
It was great. Seriously. First, went to Sentosa with my
beloved ones!!! haha. IT WAS FUN SERIOUSLY!!
haha. ok. cut short. lol.

Soon. I will talk about it.

Hmm. yeah.
Read My title??
Yeah.
SHIAT.
I'm confused. Mayb yes or no.
No. Im sure.
I still love him.
No matter what....
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK IT. WHATS THIS?
IDAYU!?
Listen to your heart.
I cant make it better.
Whatever. I cant take the feeling. Oh God.
I'm not gonna see someone for 2 years plus. I wonder
how I'm gonna survive. SHIT LA.
SHITTY CASE LA SIA!!
WAHLAO.
Forget it. I'm not gonna talk about it.
Dont ask me why I'm attitude in sch. I got alot of probs so SHUT UP.

Okay. Yeah. People,I link all of you alr. Sorry for the late thingy.
I wish I could have more time to blog. Oh well.
Okay. Other than that during V Day.
Went to O School.
haha. It was fun tho. As usual. haha. =PP
Oh wellllssss..
Then planned to go Studio Wu but too late.
zz it was alr nearing to 7. zzz . =_=

Oh wells. Yeah. I've changed the song.
Its My Very First Beats Album. Called. ~SILENCE~
Well. yeah. I hope you enjoy the 1st Track of the Album.

Oh well.. yeah.. haha..
Gosh.. This IS the BIGGEST DISTRACTION OF ALL...
This IS.
I'm not talking bout the song.
But an Incident.

Haish..
I'm dedicating this to someone..
If you are still with her...
Yeah..

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on her shirt
You don't believe her stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and I just don't know why...

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you, love you
Yeah yeah..

God... been 3 years sia...
heh.. no hope la, idayu...
just forget about it aite...
forget it....

love you...
________...

From..
Idayu..
Hearts XOXO

THIS BLOG IS UNDERGOING MAINTAINENCE.

2009-02-04T00:04:00.005+08:00

Sorry for this
HORRIFYING

NEWS
.

But YES My blog is undergoing this HEAVY Maintainence.

I'm sorry. But It'll be back as soon as possible.
Due to the current state I'm in.
I'll be back by two weeks time.

Aw,Come on. I've got tests,trainings,muster parades,meetings and settling my clients(ehem2).

So p[ease understand my delicasy situation and once again sorry because I can't
make you guys feel complacent about this.

I hereby announ that THIS BLOG, SAPHIRA-FORESHADOWS.BLOGSPOT.COM, is CLOSE for a moment.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND AND GENOROUS CO-OPERATION. =)

P.S : Each set Sold separately. ^^
P.S.S : Tagboard is still open! (me: YAY! ME!)
P.S.S.S : Don't tell anyone this..SHH. I'm GAY!HAHA.(me:Pls ar. GAY=HAPPY)
P.S.S.S.S.S : But yet still.. The truth is still sealed in me..
P.S.S.S.S : If only you know..
P.S.S.S : I've got a confession to make.. to...
P.S.S : you.. only you.. YES. you..
P.S : I LOVE YOU POCKY STRAWBERRY!!!! (me: ku-li-co!)---> GLICO.

TATA! =DDD Enjoy You "NICE" school days.
(me: urgh.. lalal XD)

..This is Me..

2009-01-11T15:08:00.005+08:00

I shall copy the previous post to my Entertainment blog.
Oh. yeah. wanna say something.
Yep. Seriously. A few of you out there know that I'm serious this time.
Till the day I collapse, I will stick to what I've said.

And yes. Recently was CCA Open House.
Get to call down all my darlings. haha.
They say they going in because of me. =PP
Nice one. hehe. Oh well. It was seriously fun. We were like screaming with the NCC Air and Delano with his. "~Oh My GoD~" haha. =P
Oh well. Then rewind. Friday was really a touching day.

Ching Na cried at the end of it.
It was fun at the beginning. I was quite free tho from the beginning.
Was with my PT Kit and the others in full U. I was quite jealous they tried out
the rifle. And I was there to stare and make fun of em.
Benson was howlianing away. hahaha. He keep tossing the rifle and acted as if
" Hey I can even toss the rifle, you all still like that ar? " haha.
Was laughing away. hahaha. =P Then Elton came by and chat with me and Salwa.
Yeah. haha...
I was SOOOOOO disappointed as when I was in the NP room helping Salwa,Kenny and Jamie Polishing the trophies. And when Ms Tan came in and told us that for the leadership training they wanted to chose me but due to cause I'm in Jazzfunk and leading the group they wont put me in the training. ARGH!!! hahaha. =PPP
Oh well. They said that the reason why is not only that, is cause they wouldn't want me to have split personalities. zzzz =_=.

What a reason. Nevermind.

SIGH.

Oh well. I was so tired tho. Doing the Dancework '09 blog ytd at Ching Na's Place.
Was slacking in the same time. She was really OBSESSED in NP. haha. =P

NP's getting better actually. haha.
But Zhen Bao, PT dont take like that leh.. I until kena neck cramp le. Sry tho. Was just stating the facts. =S

Haha,but what Rena had told me was true. I will do it.
Due to my Sec 1 promise that I made to Ms Fauziah. And someone. A CI too. =) Other than Rena. =P

Yep. Sigh. Life's getting better if you think otherwise.
Believe that you can do it. Do good. Be good. ;P Yep.
I learned that from Mrs Ang and MR BOO. haha. yeah.
Yep.

And oh yeah.
I'll come Chingay for the next training so dont miss me guys. hahaha. >.<

Kkays. Tata!

Hello 2009? Goodbye 2008?

2008-12-31T13:13:00.002+08:00

heh. 2009 the next day..
goodbye 2008 today? Lol...

Yeah.. Yesterday was my last day to be crazy as usual.
Thanks for the trip. I really love it.
Thanks
Aisyah
Elton
Aini
Khairul

Haha. I love em' especially........ Oh yeah.
Maybe next year, I planned alot.
More serious. And this time yep. I'm really goddamn serious about it.
My Eyes on Fire.

I saw MY Midnight Sun yesterday night.
And I dare you to play punk with me the moment school reopens.
No more old me. No more crazy me.
I'll be my old me for my loved ones.
So. Please dont say I'm arrogant now.. I just had enough of it.
Dunno me. Shut the fuck up.
You know me.. Then we can chat, ~ Whats Up ~.

NP Story.
Well.. Yeah. I do like NP. Seriously.. But I just dunno why I'm getting sick of it..
Getting sick of getting pumpings,screamings and etc. I know its a disciplinary UG group. But I felt as if... Like. I'm not gonna be a Policewomen when I grow up, not gonna scold people, pump people, and tell ya guys ar honestly. If I become an NCO.
Never in my life I wanna pump nor scold. Even if I had to, I'll only really burst out if it got out of to the extend, but not till you wanna scold the cadets like as if you're the biggest shot in his/her life.. Thats just PLAIN ABSURD. Seriously. And If they had REASON(s) too. Cmon. Its gotta be an ABSURD EXPLANATION too. ugh..
I could say I'm okay with the NCOs this year except some. I'm just fuck up with the way NP had been aite.. Thats all. Sry if any NCOs were to read this. I didn't regret entering nor being in it. Ok.

NP story ENDS.

New 2009 Class.
Argh! Obviously I dislike being in 3N2. Therefore I planned not to be socialise with it this time round. Cause the class is full with IDIOTs. Seriously..
Erghh.. And I dont think I wanna waste time loitering in sch after sch hours. Its killing me getting to know that the class is full with. nevermind.. Oh well. Come sch study. Go home or not stay in sch for damn fucking CCA...
Oh yeah.. I just HATE IT. OK?

New 2009 Class story ends.

But.

2009.
I want a:-
New Life.
New Clothes.
New Love Start.
New Way of Friendship.
New Schedule to fill in.
New Career.
New Stuffs.
New Audio Technica Earpiece.
New Friends.

Well.. Just a NEW start-up.
I don't want to go through stuffs thats wasting my time..
Time is precious therefore, I wanna forget about nuisance stuffs.
Wow... think gonna blog less next year..
Oh well. I wanna go now..
This is sick when I have to remember about NP,New Class..and etc..
Sigh.. Can stuffs just get better? Its just getting worse..
Ugh.. Whatever..

Movies Reviews! Twilight or YES?

2008-12-23T19:02:00.006+08:00

Yes. I'm here to do some Moviessss Reviewssss.
Well.
Like you've seen on the headline.
Twilight OR YES

Yes. I've watched both. Twilight like whole lot of times. Even tho.. Yeah.

For :-

Twilight By Stephanie Meyer.
Rating to be advised: Parental Guidance.
Rating: 6/10.
Consumer Advice: Romance/Thriller.
Genre: Romance/ Thriller
Language: English with No Subtitle
Director: Catherine Hardwicke
Main Cast: Kristen Stewart , Robert Pattinson , Billy Burke , Peter Facinelli , Elizabeth Reaser
Runtime: 121mins
Reviews :-
"Twilight" is an action-packed, modern day love story between a vampire and a human. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother remarries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she's ever met. Intelligent and witty, he sees straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than a mountain lion, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands – and he hasn't aged since 1918. Like all vampires, he's immortal. But he doesn't have fangs, and he doesn't drink human blood... Yes. Its a surprise for a Twilight Freak like me. Which in the Edward Team.
To rate that way. Seriously. And obviously it was a disappointment for the those who read the original book itself. Its WAYYY a waste of money. But I didn't regret watching it tho. Nor waste money on it. It still one of my favourite movies for the month. Well. The script was alright. But the individual act out was horrible. Yep.
It was okay near to the end tho. But they didn't bring out that well around the beginning. Lets talk about the make-up itself. I've got to agree with Miss C.
Carlisle make-up weren't that good. They didn't make him up properly tho. Could see the difference as in his darker than he was suppose to act out and its near to the neck part area there, you could see the colour difference. And Edward. Well. At first they were trying to make Edward looked hungry with black-shot eyes. But when they zoom in to his face. You could see.. He was wearing contacts. Well its obvious that he has to wear it but not till to the extend that we could see the outline of the contacts itself. zzz. Sad.
Oh well. They graphics are not that well tho. But it was ok I guess. But overall.
I think it still was okay cause the Couple,which is Bella and Edward,made the story interesting. Haha. Thats all.

YESman acted By Jim Carrey
Rating to be advised: Parental Guidance.
Rating: 9/10
Consumer Advice: Sexual Reference
Language: English
Director: Peyton Reed
Main Cast: Jim Carrey,Zooey Deschanel, Bradley Cooper, Rhys Darby, John Michael Higgins and Terence Stamp.
Runtime: TBA
Reviews :-
Ok. For YESman. I went to watch it with Aisyah today at The Cathay. It was FUN and absolutely nice story. It was about Carl(Jim Carrey). “Yes Man” stars Jim Carrey as Carl Allen, a guy whose life is going nowhere—the operative word being “no”—until he signs up for a self-help program based on one simple covenant: say yes to everything...and anything. Unleashing the power of “YES” begins to transform Carl’s life in amazing and unexpected ways, getting him promoted at work and opening the door to a new romance. But his willingness to embrace every opportunity might just become too much of a good thing. And there how the stories goes. It was nice as the plot of story went on in it. How his life ended up good and what he believes that if he ever says "No" things will go bad for him. Haha. Thats how he believes tho. Yep. Compliments for the story. Good acting and humor. Romance also. Story plot, Good. Nothing more to critic. But for those who gets disgusted easily. Don't watched it.
There's a sexual humor in it too. But it was nice to watch it. Yep. Haha. Ok I think thats all for it.

Wanting for more reviews??
Keep dropping by www.saphira-foreshadows.com till 30 December '08 for more. =D

Thats All!
Maybe the upcoming reviews are for:
IP Man.
Angus,Thongs and Perfect Snogging.
The Day The Earth Stood Still.
Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlists.
Igor.
Bolt 3D.
Pride & Glory.
Muallaf.

I think thats all for 2008.

For 2009.
A MUST-WATCH MOVIE(s).
REVIEW(s) THATS GONNA COME UP.
IS.

SEVEN POUNDS
Rating: TBA
Genre: Drama
Language: English
Director: Gabriele Muccino
Main Cast: Will Smith
Runtime: TBA
Release Date: January 1, 2009

Short Review.
Academy Award® nominee Will Smith reunites with the directors and producers of The Pursuit of Happyness for the emotional drama Seven Pounds. In the film, Smith plays Ben Thomas, an IRS agent with a fateful secret who embarks on an extraordinary journey of redemption by forever changing the lives of seven strangers.

BEDTIME STORIES
Rating: TBD
Genre: Comedy/Adventure
Language: English
Director: Adam Shankman
Main Cast: Adam Sandler, Guy Pearce, Keri Russell, Richard Griffiths, Courteney Cox, Lucy Lawless, Teresa Palmer, Russell Brand, Aisha Tyler, Jonathan Pryce
Runtime: TBA

Release Date: December 25, 2008

Official Website: http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/bedtimestories/

An adventure comedy starring ADAM SANDLER as Skeeter Bronson, a hotel handyman whose life is changed forever when the bedtime stories he tells his niece and nephew start to mysteriously come true. He attempts to take advantage of the phenomenon, incorporating his own aspirations into one outlandish tale after another, but it’s the kids’ unexpected contributions that turn Skeeter’s life upside down. From Director Adam Shankman (“Hairspray,” “The Wedding Planner”), BEDTIME STORIES features an all-star cast, including ADAM SANDLER, GUY PEARCE, KERI RUSSELL, COURTENEY COX and RUSSELL BRAND.

Well. I guess. I'll show more of the upcoming movie reviews for 2009 later on.
So. Stay tune to ~ [ N-Se7eN ] ~ and there'll be more to come!

Have a great nice.
This is Entertainment News Box Office. First Channel 7. ;D

If I Have One Wish. I would DANCE.

2008-12-20T23:06:00.003+08:00

Yeah. Its Saturday Night.
Felt at ease.
Yep. Surprise. I'm blogging again.
So yep. Its still alive.

Oh. Yes. Chingay Training for 20 DECEMBER '08.

It was absolutely fine and fun.
Glad Jokhie came down today. Saw all the NYPs.
And I was so called "ONE-OF-EM". haha. Yeah.

Training was tiring.
But Fun. I don't know why.
Mickie seemed Happy. That made me at ease.
But something came up tonight.
Afi. Don't worry alright. Everythings gonna be fine.
Trust my words. Friends. ~~Lovers~~
Friends = Longer. Lovers = Depends.

So yeah. Smile Alright.

Okay. Chingay Again.

Saw Melvin's T-Shirt.
It said.

"If I Have One Wish. I would DANCE"

I love that t-shirt seriously. The person too. hehe. =X
He's the coolest dance cheorographer I've ever met.
And men. It reminds me of.
The dance cheorographers I know.
I missed em' alot fo' sure.
Like,

From The iLLers,
Rio Chan.
Wilson.
Jen.

From the Outside,
Eden.

From O School,
An An.
Ryan.
Daniel.
Gin.
Fredy.
Ben.
*Melvin. << ( This one not really sure. Ms Caneda mention he was from O Sch. But the only thing I knew he performs for em')

Yeah. Men. I really missed em'. Sheeesshh.
Oh well. Okay cut the chase. I was quite specificly sure that
there's another training coming up this Monday Evening.

Yep.
Aww. Shit. Reminds me of my Monday,22 December Schedule for the day.

Morning.
- Jazzfunk Practise. Music/Band Room. 8 - 10.00 am.
- 11 till afternoon. Busy. Occupied. Sorry.

Night.
-Chingay Practise. 22 December. PA HQ. 7 - 10.00 pm.

Nice.... ZZZZ.

Oh well. At least its dance. Something that I LOVE to DO.
PASSION. MY ECSTACY. haha.

Yeah. Oh well.
Okay. I think thats for now.
My mind is full with some people.
Basically. A. A. M. E. E.
This five people.

A - Why she never reply? IS she ok?
A - My heart wants you. But you're not ready..
M - We've got something on. But I dunno what. Your eyes tells everything.
E - Where are you?
E - Hey. I'm really gonna miss you.. Have a good life in future..

Sigh...

Its.

Black & Gold..

I Froze The Time Today.

2008-12-14T22:20:00.002+08:00

I Froze The Time Today.
I look back. I felt adrenalin rushing on my spine.
I saw my past. It was a dilemma for me.
I felt like going back. But deep inside my heart wants to move
forward. To be strong and not a coward. Yes. I'm heading on.
I'll be the one that I should be. The one I should have
thought of being from the past.
I saw whats coming up.
I know.
But it doesnt mean I cant change it.
But I'll take it slow.

My uncle just died this morning. I didn't slept the whole night and got a call from the police. I was the one who picked up the one. I frozed when he said this.
"Are you aware that your uncle has just passed away..?"
My sister was shouting at me asking who was it when my face tensed up.
"Its the fucking police! Our uncles dead! So shut up!"
I didn't meant to shout that to her. I was still caught up with my own problem.
I've got alot to face. And I know, I believe I can go through it.
Yeah. Thats it. Its about believing in yourself. Not giving up.
Yes. I frozed the time today. I was alone walking just now along the river nearby.
Nothing moved except the clear waters. I think back. I told myself.
I wont follow my emotions any longer I will move on and think rationally in the future. Emotions will just tear you apart from reality.

Just a random message to everyone out there.
Sorry If i didn't linked you up since centuries of decades. I'll try to do so as soon as possible. Hope you understand. yes. I saw Y3's blog just now.
Thanks bro. haha. Even you said I was a little noisy. At list I was still in your list. I appreciated that. =)

Well. I dont like bitches. BAstards. This is random I know. But I just saw something. Yeah. God.

I dunno now. I just felt that I want this to be the last post. After that.
My blog's gonna die. Forever. I suppose. Maybe.
I wanna stay away from some people as far as possible. I think. I dunno.
I just want to do so. Maybe. Forget it.

Replacement huh...?

2008-12-02T11:07:00.004+08:00

Yeah. Let me blog this out.
Ive been having this thoughts for quite a long time.
But kept silence. haha.. yeah..
I think likewise. Someone felt as if my other friends are his/her replacement.
I wont mention whether its a she or he.
But yes. I think that way too. I dont ever regard em as his/her replacement.
But. At times. I felt he/her had found someone over the years as a replacement
of me. Nah. Not being sensetive. I'll rationalize it.
Everytime I'm not there. He/She will look upon the 'other me' for help.
Or simple just to hangout. Ok.
We'll forget about it.
I guess he/she loves it this way. I'll leave it that way then.
Don't wanna stress so much about it.
Yeah..
Heh.. Nah.. I'm okay.. I'm used to this situation.

Yeah. I changed my song. I know.
Am I here livin' a lie?
Except mines not a love story.
Its life.
~ And I cant tell nobody how I feel. ~
~ And I cant tell nobody how we is. ~

Thats what they say.
I'll agree with the first..
I'll change the second..
~ And I cant tell nobody how "IT" is ~

haha... yeah.. start my emo again?
Lol. No.
I dont think people will see my emo-side again.
At most when I'm thinking,and my face turn absolute serious.
haha.. yeah..

And I just donno why.. Because of what I've been through alot this while.
I'm beginning to lose the sense of feelings.
I'm just here trying to make someone smile.
But it looks like, heh..

Forget it aite.. I'm just sick of this.. heh..
yeah.
But no matter what. In EVERY relationship,friendship or whatever-ship.
We have to go through ups and downs.
In order to have a happy ending for it..
yep.
thats the moral behind this story for today..
lol..

I'm not gonna remorse over anything anymore. NO MORE.
heh.. dont say I'm heartless. I do still have a heart. But for MY LOVED ONES ONLY.

ONLY.

THEM.

ONLY!!!!!!!!!!!!

get it..? yeah.. heh..

Yeah..

Off~

N-Se7eN bast peoples life up.
Just shut up.
If you dont even know whats up.

DANCE,Dance,dance... =P I'm Lovin' It.

2008-11-26T11:03:00.002+08:00

Yeah.
Ok peeps. There's a Jazzfunk performance at Far East Plaza!
On 5 Dec!
~ MUST COME! =)

Yeps. Lol. At least this second performance gonna be better than
the first. Urgh. The First was a disaster!
Yeah. Oh uh huh.
I'm waiting for the Perth group to come down my place as we need
to finish the whole presentation up.
Seriously. WHY,WHY!? Must I have to work with SOMEONE.
And be the 2nd in charge.. nice... zzz =.=

Ok ok. fine.. Im bloody bored.
Again. I didnt sleep ytd nite. hahahahaha...
Some people know why..
Damn..My right palm got one blue black sia..
Somemore its right in the middle of it. And it looks like the yin and yang?
Whatever it spells like. yeah. Its bloody cool yet painful. But I dont
know why I aint feeling the pain unless I fist it. LOL.

Oh yeah. hmmm..
Todays planning.
After 4. They ciaos home.
I'll just go around and destroy things around the neighborhood.
lol. Then do more graffiti along the walls of Jericho. hahaha.
then go and burn humans houses. hahaha.
SKIDDDIIINNNNN!

Ya think Ima do that shit?
Thats just crazy! hahaha. oh well.
I'm just bored. AERGH!

Oh well.

PEOPLE. I'll link ya all a.s.a.p. hahaha. =) ok ok. GTG. tatata!

What type of Vampire am I? ;D

2008-11-22T18:01:00.001+08:00

Is it Love or Addiction?

2008-11-20T23:00:00.003+08:00

Yeah. I wanna talk about this..
Lol. I've been wondering..
If certain things happened.. Isit Love? Or its just Addiction?
The issue of determining if you are in love or intensely addicted to another is an issue that crosses all ethnic, racial, class and age lines. How is love experienced in a modern world that values materialism more than anything else? It is challenging to define love today. I believe love is mutual self-less giving that is based on a deep trust. The characteristics of addiction are craving of a person, severe mood swings if unable to feel secure in the relationship, inability to function normally, obsession of your partner and severe withdrawal symptoms if your lover leaves you.

haha.. hmmm... So, what is the difference between being in love from being addicted?

The characteristics of being addicted to someone else are:

1. There is full time drama in your life which causes chaos and confusion. Other friends and family members are dragged into you emotional upheaval.
2. You are always trying to please your partner by giving more of yourself than you should-until you reach the point where you have no self at all.
3. After intense fighting, you are willing to take your partner back no matter how much he hurt you. The fight usually involves infidelity, lying, and other forms of cheating, but you take him back no matter how many times he commits these offenses.
4. You are afraid to exist without him even though you have been very much alone during your time with him. You don’t recognize that he is bringing you down.
5. Your partner crosses a boundary that should never be allowed. He physically assaults you, threatens your life and calls you stupid, the c word and the b word.

The characteristics of being in love with someone are:

1. There is no fear of bodily harm, emotional abuse or other boundary violations.
2. You know you can trust him to do the right thing.
3. There is a distinct absence of drama and chaos.
4. When you have an argument, there is a respectful sharing of feelings.
5. You forgive him because you want to, not because you have to.
6. He supports your need to be a strong, independent woman and you support his need to be a strong, independent man.

You finally now have the opportunity to choose between being driven by addiction or love in your relationships. For those of you who have been relating to others in an addictive manner, it will take lots of work and full time awareness to alter this course. However, it is possible to change and this will greatly improve the quality of your life..

i sound.. soooo.. WUW. haha.

Ok Ok. lol. im just bored. And the topic came up in my mind.
lol. greattt....
Tomorrow I'll post abt soemthing. haha..
More to ... Something else..
Just see.. LOL.

tata. XD

This is for my beloved bestfriend.. Aisyah..

2008-11-18T21:02:00.004+08:00

This is the whole thingy I wanna say to you..
Recap from your tagboard.. I don wanna flood it.. sry..lol..
Yeah.. here it goes again..

Hey...
Its ok if you cant tell... never run.. no matter how hard you fall flat on your face and you just wanna give up. I believe every humans do have a second chance. even if its used up...I still believe theres this small portion in our hearts that we could still strive for the better. seriously.. remember wat ive said b4? what you believe is what you'll become... and..What you'll become will come set you your destiny.. We dont wanna end up rotting,feeling remorse over it.. even the scar is painful,think rationally,what could solve it.. but if you want to know..
Is not who or what or anything that can solve it.. Its you,who can solve it.. Feel good and love yourself everyday. Think for the better and put in few efforts 4 it,like ive said..Its not the heart thats killing you,is the mind..
Dont feel upset.. Be strong syah..Seriously.. No matter what.
Stand up tall. No one has the right to bring you down! NO ONE! You are strong.
I believe that! Its not time to give up! Remember..
Dont tell me theres no human being that never ever did a single SIN before..
Thats just bullshit.. We did. Even I did. Even if its not the biggest or the worst,
you learned from it right? For the better of cuz. Dont ever fall then stand up and run. When you fall. Carry yourself up and remember how you slip. And never
let that happened again. Im really no good at advicing but I'm trying my best
doing everything thats best for you. Im no lesbian. But I love ya sis, i dont
want any single FUCKING thing to happened to you. And pls...
If anyone ever dare to touch you. They're really messing with my ass man.
I hate this part right here. Yes.
Dont feel weak. Pls.
Dont say yourself a monster.
Dont say your heart is sour.

Dont ever say stuffs like that to make yourself feel better.

Yep. Your last love. Is to God. Thats what i do.
Allah is the most closest to you. Not me. Nor you.
But I'm still there for you when you need me..
DO NOT EVER COMPARE YOURSELF TO ANYONE ELSE.
DO NOT LET ANYONE COMPARE YOU WITH ANYONE. unless its something better.
BUT. You are what you are. They dont like it. They lost a good friend.
They like it. They gain it. You gotta search that inner strength within you.
Listen to what Eminem had said in his songs.
1#
This is what he've said.
Sometimes you feel tired,
feel weak and, when you feel, you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.

See what I mean. I wont encourage you by saying its ok to do something really
bad. But you know the consequences right..? im not saying that you've done
something bad either.. But going fast wont do good either.
Go reallllllyyyy slow... Think... Really feel..
Forget about the past. They're just past thats holding you back.
It aint do good thinking abt em'. Pls.. Im begging you.. Just
dont do anything stupid..
I know you want your dad back badly.. I know how much you love him..
I saw how you go through the times when you were with your dad..And when
you were with your mum.. I know how it feels.. & I want you know..
what I believe about your dad.. That he still loves you..
Dont worry.. He'll find you and you'll find him..
All you need is.. love.
Yeah.. Some people might be saying this.. haha.. macam faham ar idayu...
translation.. like you understand the whole situation like that..
But Ive got to tell you guys out there too..
being someone different is also hardship... But I guess a few knows about me..
Not all.. Well.. Aisyah.. There's one more thing..Da last thing
I wanna say....

God knows the best.. And there's reasons why you've put through this hard life
situation.. He wants you to learn something.. Its a challenge.
remember.. every time this kind of things happened.. treat it as a test from God.
You pass it at the end.. You fail it.. Its all your to decide.
Do the best.. aite.
Sorry if i get out of topic. But this is what I've learned during those moments
when I needed space. Its what Ive experience and put it into habit..

And yeah.. This is what Ive learned..And I want you to know about it too..
You see...
1. You put your experience into words.
2. Your words become thoughts.
3. Your thoughts become ideas.
4. Your ideas become actions.
5. Your actions become habits.
6. Your habits become personality.
7. Your personality. Becomes your destiny.

aite..

Ive got to go now.. and.. yeah... seriously..
Friday I hope you're free and if you are try get $10.
Ask me personally why.. =)

Bye...Love ya sis.. Sry Im not that good at advicing.. seriously.. haha...

Sorry.. take care aite..

Silence Overtook Me...

2008-11-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

Some part are for everyone thats known me more than 2 years.
Upset over some stuffs.
Seriously.. really upset...
Didnt expect.. But it did happened
somehow I predicted it would, before this.
In the morning. yeah.
Guess I'm no more important to some people.
Yeah. this is what you get when you've been trying
your very best to keep peoples feelings in place.

This is for her.
Nevermind. I understand her situation.
Let it be. If you need me. Im just a call away.
If not other than that. I wont control your life.
Its your life. I've no rights to control or decide
what you should do.. But I hope you'll always
remember to go for the rights. Even problems
might come through and out, you gotta believe that
you can solve it smoothly with a solution.
Just dont go do anything stupid. I dont like it.
I've stop mine. Lol. I cant be hurt also. =_=
But at least there's small amt. One tiny dot. zz.
Well. I understand that certain problems and circumstances
we cant share. No worries. I know. You needed the space.
Yes. I believe that. I needed too. At times for sure.
So yeah. Dont worry about making me stop my plannings
if im having any. A bfriend will still be a bfriend.
No matter what. =) So I hope you'll understand this.
Just remember what I've sms you last time. That long lecture
I gave ya. Think abt what ive said. Isit worth while..?
When there's alot people around you that you can share it with to.
So,spill it out partna. It aint gonna do good, if its trap.
You'll keep havin' headaches. So cheer up. I still got your back.
No matter if there's someone more better than me out there..
Love ya sis...

OH YA. I've got mood to blog. But not sms or talk yes.
So anything TAG. And I'll try replying you guys back before
Dooms Day. yeah.ohoh. && yep. If you guys ever see me outside
alone. bloodshot red eyes. dont say anything or hi.

~Im just sleepy and moody.~

err yeah.. I dunno why..

My mood swing for today is like the worse among all mood swings I had b4.
The most scariest mood swing ever.
ARGH! I NO MOOD ALREADY. 4get it!!!!!!!!!

WTH! sorry guys. This is my first VULGAR post for the month.
Men. Ive stop saying vulgar already but things are just making
me saying it again.. God forgive me..
but men...

FUCK IT!!
ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Nvm. Im good. Chill as the real me. heh...
Next year ar.. I think you all wont recognize me already..
I dont think I wanna be hyper like last time..
but still I'll still have my happy side lah..
I wont be THAT serious... Unless ppl are asking 4 it.
Since MY NEW classmates are some ppl which is.
Yeha. and. yep. ooohh.. soo. yea.
I just. what. oh yep. okay.

Yeah. thats how the story goes.
ok.
FINE. I wanna chill now.

CIaOs!

Yo PEOPLE!

2008-11-16T22:59:00.002+08:00

Ok.
PEOPLE. LISTEN UP.

I've got nothing to say. BUT

I'm finishing my 5th song soon!
WOooOOOooTS!

Ok ok. Title : Pin It Up!
By : Me of course. haha. =P a.k.a N-Se7eN.

Yeap. I think thats all for today. Cause I'm feeling lazy to blog. lol.
OooOOooOKAy!

P.S : I miss NDP 2008 Moments...
P.S.S: I MISS PERTH AND THE TRIP AND THE PEOPLE. SPECIALLY AL******!

haha.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

I'm stuck in Heart Station for the first time...

2008-11-13T21:35:00.003+08:00

Ok people You wanna read about Perth Entry. Which Is MINE~
Go here.

www.myhappinesslullaby.blogspot.com

Thank you! pls visit and tag!

Ok ok.

got to tell ya guys...
again.
I think I'm sticking to my real me behaviour.
I wish you guys would understand.
Would give me a hand.
But this stuffs? huh? haha.. it has to depend.
The future.
My behaviour.
If someone could understand the bitter..ness..
Of being ignore-polluted by the surroundings.
I know you guys wont understand this things.
the words im saying.
No. Not because i rapping.
Its because you guys think its irrtating.
when Im starting it again.
But all this while. Who's facing the pain?
Yes. I wanna say this.
The Truth is The Pain,
You dont face it? Then there's No Gain!
You wanna be better in life. Not worst.
You wanna get successful in life. Not broke.
You want people to love you. Not hate.
You better get moving a little. Get my debate?
Sometimes people say Im-No-Making-Sense.
Sometimes people say iM-jusT-toO-tensE.
But yet still.
Who's going through it?
And yet still.
Who's paying the wounds-bill?
yes. ME. I'm paying on my own for my own.
I dont retrace my wrong footsteps to take to the right better path.
I learned from it and make sure I make things right at the end of it.
Being right all the time wont gain anything buddy.
Being wrong all the time wont gain you any improvement homie.
So what I'm trying to say.
We have our rights.
We have our wrongs.
But we've gotta learned to handle it correctly,
or we'll have to go ding-dong.
Oh yeah. Its like I'm making a song.
i'm still me no matter what.
hate me. your choice.
love me. its still your choice.
I've got to agree to what Assahktian gotta say in his blog.
What is this all bout. Specificly, Love.
Its like the worst maniac FOUR LETTERS SITUATION.
Which can drive you crazy.
Insane.
Happy.
In pain.
But at most leave you blind through you life.
Once you're blind.
You're leaving the facts behind.
hah! Get it?
Oh. Still dont.
Check it!
Dont tell me you wont.
haha. Even those out there the mature ones.
Will sometimes agree to this.
Yes SOMETIMES. But men. This is life. Its like twist!
So get yourself at the hang of it.
Try to understand,
why I'm always puttin out a rap like this.
Its because I'm still wondering....

Who can really understand what I'm feeling right now..
Somehow..
Well. This is life right?
Well I think it will end someday.
I think it wouldnt I would say.
But oh well. again.
the Pain is still here with me.
How am I suppose to be really happy?
I bet money dont.
I bet Love do.
But somewhat. I needa find someone who can do this.
But who?

OFf`~~~

OH NO!

2008-10-28T22:50:00.003+08:00

OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Breakup? DOnt tell me you did breakup with her..

PLEASE TELL ME... NOT YOU & HER.

GOD. SOMETHING I REALLY DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT.........

I just read his blog and first thing i saw..

YEAH. AND IM CONFUSED. lol.

| Nothing gotta do with me. But absolutely up to my concern since
my affair with him. HEYHEY just bro & sis okay. |

GOD!

HELP!

ERRR>>>>>>>>> NVM!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BEA!

2008-10-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEA!
lol. Your present is with me..
I can even contact you! =((((((

GOD! Men. Why must you finish your credits when its your birthday!

SHEESSSHHH.. haha. oh well.

yeah yeah. I'll be seeing you soon okay!!
Lets go to the other Chingay one?
Well at least Afi can join us too. =P
haha ok ok.
Hope you had a greadt day today and good week and end. =)

OK ok. Here's the deal ppl.
IF I NEVER Answer your calls.
Reply your smses.
Not at home if you call my house phone.
Reply your emails.

And I'm SUDDENLY so

SILENT~~

Please dont misunderstand.
Dont start saying stuffs like
"hey why are you avoiding me?"
"err,Idayu are you okay? You're scaring me.." (p.s : =.=)
"IDAYU CAN YOU PLS GET BACK TO ME,I MISS YOU"
(p.s : somethings definitely wrong with this fella.)
"Eh. You busy isit? Haiya,Dont disturb you nia. Your rest okay?
Dont think too much hor. Anything call me. " (p.s : DEFINITELY out of SYLLABUS.)

OK lemme tell ya why.
First thing first.
PP LOW.
Second goes right after.
I dont feel like entertaining anyone at the moment. Needa REST.
Third comes beFOUR
Let me ask for advance forgiveness,before anything happens.
Fourth last in Da list.
PLS UNDERSTAND THAT I DONT HAVE ALL THE TIME TO BE WITH YOU GUYS.
AND I'M REALLY SORRY OKAY..

Thanks Yous. Okays. Peoples.
Todas w-ass Jazzfunks Secs 1s Auditions.
Alls w-ass afraids sos Is haves tos acts reallys friendlys withs ems.
Hahas. W-ass reallys hards tos judges ands guides thems throughs outs
thes wholes things.

And finally after that. Teacher said.
Ms Caneda: "Idayu tell your gang,time to choose people up in the group."
Me: OKAY! ROGER!

IMPRESSIVELY AMUSINGLY AMAZINGLY SUPRISINGLY SACARSTICLY
MAGNIFICENTLY unCONDIOTIONALLY & LASTYLY.

Out all of 40 people.
My eyes and others caught about only 15 of em.
haha. nice.

Sorry for the rest who didnt get in.
I hope you understand that we really need to see the way you dance not
appearence or anything. Attitude comes along with the package so. yeah.
I really didnt get to say that just now. But I know,some of you will view this
and read it out. SO yeah. haha. Ppl-ease understand thank you.. =)

OK then i guess thts all for tonight tho...

I'm still worried about someone.. Hope you aren't angry at me...

I'm stuck with feelings of guilt!

2008-10-26T12:05:00.003+08:00

ok ok.
I'm back with this boring blog of mine.
aha. yeah. I'm going out soon later.. hahahaha.
Going to...Err.. I dont even know where. haha.
Ok. forget it.
Men. I went speeding with My Cuzz bicycle just now and
it was like wow. I want his bike totally! And he say.
Go ahead. hahaha. LIAR! haha. =P
Oh well. Then at 3am in the morning just now.
I dont sleep. So yeah. I hit Blk 222 basketball court there and play.
The only place I could play at that time without having complains.
yep.
Then after that, thats when I went speeding with his bike. haha.
We went to cycle till Orchard there the Boat Quay area. haha.
That was around 4+ in the morning. haha.
And yeah. When we reached there. Seriously. There are more hot guys
wondering around in that hour. haha. LOL. But still.
I'm not interested with them. ahah.
Even one try asking me out. I ran to my cuzzy and pretended his my bf.
hahahah =P. It work out. LOL. Thanks for helping me out cuzz.

Oh yeah. After that cycle back here in Toa Payoh. Found myself having
numb knees for bball and cycling in a row. haha.|and yet still going out later.
Nvm. Im cool. haha. lalal XD.

Oh mind.
I felt guilty nowadays. ONLY for my loved ones. haha.
SORRY EVERYONE IF I RESPONSE LATE OR ACTING WEIRD LATELY.
I SERIOUSLY DUNNO WHAT BOTHERING ME. heh.

lalal XD ok ok. Check out my other blogs. They're opening soon to public. =)

Decisions..

2008-10-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

Yeah.

Went for the Chingay 2009 audition today.. Just reach home.
Yep. I'm in this Magic Thingy. So yeah. heh..

The whole thing was great I guess. Met someone new and interesting.
His Luke. And a twin brother of his name Mark.
They're nice tho I love their features..That does not mean I like em'.
They have this fierce vampire teeth. heh. yeah.

Oh well.. Yao yuan,bro, haha thanks for your advice aite.
Yeah like i've said. Let my heart really decide which one is the right one
tho. Yeah. Stuffs getting complicated as each day went by.

I want to write messages here to those I'm very very very close recently.
Aisyah,I hope you're okay. You can message me anytime. Feel free to share with
me your probs. I'm available to help ya knoe. Cause I'm like 24 hours
awake. heh. Daylight is my time to rest tho. So most of the time. I sleep in class.
But I'll get back to you as soon as possible if i miss anything. =) Please cheer
up.. =) Smile alright..
Afi,smile and strive for the better alright. I dont want to see you this way again.
I knew how it feels like,I've been there and maybe I've even taken few more steps
forward than you..Its hard I know,when we love someone dearly..
yeah.. Pls smile. I'll be here if you need me.. =) again.. Smile alright.. =)

Well there are few more for those who've been close to me. But this are the main
ones I wanna bother about. yeah.
Its true I've got my own problems either but my heart wont be in peace if I kept
knowing whats wondering in their mind. yeah..

Off. ~~~

Its just a little crush... =)

2008-10-18T13:57:00.005+08:00

God. I'm in a LOVE DANGER.

Eu. Sa. Eb. E. B. ~~Ch.~~ Za.

ARGH! So many!? I'm confused... I missed em'.

ERGH! Im not a playa dudeed! My heart go crazy.

If I see the EU. and go complicated when I see the Sa.
So melted and I-dunno-how-to-explain-feeling when I hear Eb voice.
My heart go crazy,angry,missin-him,UNEXPLAINED when I see El.
So out of mind when I see Be. Nothing for Ch. So his out of the list.
So CONFUSED when I heard Za voice. ERGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

So that's hahahaha. yeah. LOL.

Nevermind. I'm Independent. haha. Yeah.

But still. The feelings occupied me.
too many love stories.

heartbreaks,happy memories. good lovers.
Special friends. Haishh..

Nevermind. I'll only explain everything out soon. Maybe. ahah.

yeah. okay okay.

Hols coming. Ytd,corporal test part 1. YEAH. haha.
=D f-ing right hand. Now only typing with my left hand. F-UP!

Nvm. I'm cool.

good luck for my squad the next time we having it again aite! haha.

Oh well. ytd. I heard all their voices back..

I'm soooooooo confused with myself.

Sa came to my place.
Then he sat beside me with his looks... like. lalalal XD.

haha. noth lah.

FINE.

I gtg. BYE BYE! =)

2008-10-11T20:25:00.003+08:00

Hey PEOPLE.

Just wanna let you know. I'll be mostly updating about my daily life on
another blog.

When you reading this at most what I'm feeling for now is all type out
the other way.

yeah. I'm happy about the stuffs thats been happening right now.

Veyr happy,not stress,very contented in stuffs i do. =)

And yeah. Another blog. hmm.
I only opened it to My sister.
MY BLOOD SISTER. Not any sister out there.

Sorry to say that, to my sisters. Like Aisyah,Clara and others for example.
yeah. Really sorry,forgive me. I think that blog is very personal.
Hope you guys understand.

yeah just for extra info.

The first blog is this. I name it The#1 : Twilight.
The#2 : New Moon. I didnt open that one for anyone either.
The#3 : Eclipse. I'll open soon to publish my songs when I'm ready. Thats my own entertainment section. =)
The#4 : Breaking Dawn. Opening soon to public.This one is very Open.
The#5 : The Midnight Sun. THIS IS PROHIBITED TO PEOPLE. And this is the one I'm talking about. Its actually where I really spill out all my deep thoughts and
feelings there. Its very personal. But dont worry I dont talk behind people on this blog. Its just a place where I really express everything out.

You know why, I name it all following the Twilight Saga? Cuz most of the part of
the story,is nearly same as mine. Likely. But not Exactly. So yeah. I might
be planning to make my own Saga. haha. Just so I'm more original.
Dont wanna people start saying "Idayu's a copycat".
FUck. They're fuckers.

Oh yeah. I dont feel like blogging anymore. anyways. Be aware.

Anyone of you try to fuck with me again.
I'll make sure I'll fuck you back.
Fuckers.

Tsk.

Dont be mistaken..

2008-10-02T20:52:00.003+08:00

Hey. Hey!

Don't be mistaken by the previous post.

I'm not talking about Edward CULLEN at the end of the post.

Its all about another Edward. A friend of mine... I guess..

Ergh.. F. I don't wanna talk about THIS Edward of mine. Zzz =_=

I cant concentrate on exams. FUCK.

I cant concentrate on myself. FUCK.

I'm back with my vulgar stuffs again...

I cant stand the feeling.. damn it..

Forget ABOUT EVERYTHING OKAY!

IDAYU. STAY FOCUS MEN!

AWW. Just came back home from b-boyin with Eugene,Salleh and Joel.

I think thats cool. Eugene and Salleh keep smiling and laughing when

they look at me. zz. Especially Eugene. ZZZ =_=

lalala XD.

Ok some people are getting to my nerves right now.. just because they think
I'm always that quiet when comes in like..

errgghh.. some of you may get what i mean..

and a mean while. as you can see..

don't entertain me... if my eyes are different than usual..

take note of that.. that's the most thing i wanna let you guys know.

I'm not myself this days. REMEMBER.

DO NOT ENTERTAIN ME IF MY EYES AREN'T USUAL LIKE ALWAYS.

Don't come asking for a fight cuz you really gonna get one.
Don't irritate or be sarcastic in front of me.
Don't joke that much..I'm totally in my silent mode for now.
Don't ask me why I'm acting weird. It has becoming my natural instinct.
Hate me all you want. I dont think that bothers me that much.
What bothers me if I lose my loved ones. For sure.
There's more. But find it yourself.
FCK. Why.. im acting this way..

I'm so... DIFFERENT from IDAYU.

I won't entertain you if any of that happend and some others.

I will simply ignore. So. Be Aware if I suddenly ignore ya.

Again. I think I wont bother ya that much.

F OfF..

Dammit.. I fell in love with him again... Not that ficitonal character but the one I met before..

2008-09-30T20:45:00.004+08:00

Edward Cullen.

Thats his name. The guy I'm crazying about in a book.
but something extra ordinary happened today.
I can't belive even though I'm just reading some fictional storybook.
And even reading some fictional romantic characters up.
I could fell in love with him.
Gosh,even tho its just a character.
Lemme tell ya.

His the FIRST
guy, which I come across that is so romantic and loving.

ERGH! Men. I envy Isabella Swan. She could feel the love that he has given her.

haish.. haha.

Yeah I've just bought the 2nd book of the Twilight Saga. Reading it right now. haha

Oh well. Can't wait to watch Twilight in Cinema! haha. Oh well.

Seriously,he's even good looking for a vampire. haha.

AWwwWW men. Is there anybody out there who's just like him?

I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN!

lalala XD. haha remember. Im in love with EDWARD CULLEN as a book character.

ok ok. Cut it out. At most from now on. You'll see most of his pic around my blog
frequently then. haha

OK ok. recently saw Louis Hamilton. Went to talk to him. And he thought I was
following him home. zzz when his taking the same route to his car with me.

lalal XD. But gotta tell you. He's very sweet person.
BUt WHY!?

In the world of heaven & EARTH.

I've FORGOTTEN to take his Autograph and Picture with him!

I am so F UP!

Men. He told me he might be giving me his msn if we ever meet again.

awwwww damn. I wish we meet again. haha. But when????

~~/// ~~

Gotta tell ya'all something...

lol... nah.. its a SECRET....

GOD IM CONFUSE TELL ME WHO IS HE?

I wanna know now! NoNO! I felt that I need him now!

I met you once in the past. You were part of my life.

And now I saw you again.. I felt as if. I were brought back to life without all the

pain.

I knew you somewhere before. I know I saw you before. I talk to you...

And you kiss...... with those cold lips of yours... DAMN!
ARGH!!!!!!! ED! I think I need you..

I finally realised.. yes its you!

ED! I'm not joking. You might be only appearing in MY life not in the others.

But I just knew you were there all along..

DAMN.... ~

You arent EDWARD CULLEN. But You are definitely MINE EDWARD...~~

NOW!

2008-09-20T11:50:00.002+08:00

SHIT.

Now Im coughing out BLOOD again.

I think I should break fast and take my medicine alr.

F!

I dont want to waste!!!

WAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

XD

I cant take it anymore.!!!

2008-09-20T11:19:00.003+08:00

OK!

Dont ask me why I didnt blog ytd.

I was freaking damn TIRED.

haha. Well.
Ytd. During Achery course.
Lemme see...

Ok ok. Was fun! ^^
Knew he was coming. =D
ehehehehe. XD

KENNY. YOU BLOODY HELL.
Nvm. lalal XD. JK JK.

AT elast everything turn out to be fun tho. I got a few pics right now.
But I kinda find it a little lazy to post. =P

Ok ok.
nvm..

Shall post it later!

CHING NA!

I want MY DARLING K9 Unit Guy PICTURE!
WAHHHH!
hahaha. lalala XD.
I dont know know how many darlings I have.
Lost count.

but the REALDEARDEAR oooonly...

1

See I very good y'know. hehehehe.

OK OK. lalala XD.

I cant stand the exhaustion I had ytd. And its dragging me till now.

God. How I wish I could breakfast.

1# My bleeding throat is killing me.
2# My HIGH FEVER is torturing.
3# The HEADACHE im having is making me puking all the time.
4# SO STRESS for EXAMS. haha. Needa StuDY!

OK OK.

And I dont know why. I didnt take my medicine this early morning.
ZZZ =_=

Very BIG Mistake.

OOOoooooOOooookkkkkkkKKkkkkKKkk.

Its 11.42am.

Should I break fast?

YES! or NO! .

FINE.

I shall judge it later.
Ok ok. Now.

I shall.

STUDY. =D

kks. TATA. XD.

ENJOYS. <3

LOOK AT THE TIME!

2008-09-19T03:35:00.002+08:00

haha. now?
The time that I rise and shine.
Lol. Just wake up from sleep.
Believe it or not.
Just finish dancin at 12 plus then just went bed.
And JUST wake up. nice. hahaahaha..

ok ok.

Look at the time right now.
I dont know what to do sia..
Wanna play XBOX. nono. cant.

So i went to study just now. at 2 plus.

Then now. Just took my dawn meal for tmrw fasting day.

LALAL XD

Oh well. My song finish downloading alr.

think go sleep right now. tata.

^-^

2008-09-18T21:09:00.009+08:00

OKAY! I've just got a subject to post about!

DANCE! yeah..

haha. oh yeah!

Nvm. Ms Caneda anytime you need people to teach other dance I'm available!

I LOVE DANCE!

DANCE is my Initial Energy!

Listening to the neat right now? I'm breaking to that beat few days ago!

And Sheila Set up the lightings in the music room.
And i really wish i got that video!

Ill make sure I master Air Swipe a.s.a.p!

haha. Dancin right now!

I cant take it.
I really love breaking.
Locking,popping. And Stuff.
I love MUSIC!

Composing it. Rappin' it. Singin' It.

And stuffs thats gotta do with Entertainment!

DANCE!

Nvm. Tmrw tell Sheila no need go home. Stay in school dance like hell!
I make sure I can break VERY WELL!

HAHAHAHAH!

BREAKIN' TIME baby!
Lemme show ya what I got ahahahahaha ^^

Once a song is played.
Someone dances out to its beat,
I tell ya there's no delay.
Common get up to your feet!

Play that soundtrack!
Play it out loud!
Take it all out put it as a stack.
I make sure y'all know whats dance is all about!

Breakin' - N,
Poppin' - N,
lockin' - N,
Hip Hop - N,
Stuffs like this I'll do it with noooo End...

Stand up.
Put your hands up!
So y'all whatsup!
I'm rappin' out this lyric.
Makin' out this place mess up Mic & rapper chic!
Steppin' out the stage showin'
wat I've got and whats playin'
Stop tellin'
people lies,and things.

Yo bro..
You stole my limelight.
I make sure you will feel ma flo'
and make you realised whats right!

hah!
guess no need fo' that.
We'll make up a team.
and just remember what i said.
dance it all out,show everyone how it seems.

To be composin' randomly.
Last minute on stage.
And rappin' out happily.
Even tho' there a dog escape from its cage.

Ok ok. I'll put it to an end.
And this rap is composed by
~ [ N - Se7eN ] ~

a. k. a

Idayu. END.

HAHA XD

2008-09-18T21:09:00.005+08:00

ok ok ok.
POK POK POK!

I'm okay okay!
I told you I'm random.. zzz
OoooooooKKKkkkkkkkkk!

ART! WAS SPLENDID BABY!
Erghhhh...

I CANT BELIEVE IT !

Science was easy!
When I had to read that TEXT BOOK.

For tha last minute!

HAHAHAHA XD

lalalal XD

ok ok. Overall was great.

I think?
haha yeps. thinking positive outcome!

Yeah! Tmrw achery! hahahaha!

Ok ok. Cant wait for that.
Lemme see..

WAIT!

OH NO!

D & T!

haha. Nvm. Easy. Yao Yuan & I are going to complete it tmrw!

Once and for all! HAHAH!

eeeekkkkk~

Mummy! Needa study maths! Maths! MATHS!

science! Science! SCIENCE!

Eng! no need.
Malay! no need.
Literature! no need.

HISTORY! Needddd..

hehehe. I love history! lalala XD

Believe it or not. I got A1 for history for y progress chart last term
when all I did in class is to sleep during Mr Yeo's lessons.

hehehe XD

ok ok. Lemme see. Wait. break. Ill blog again later. =D

2008-09-18T21:09:00.002+08:00

I'm dissapointed with myself!

ERGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
F YOU IDAYU!

haishhh...
wah.. I'm so f up.
I dont know why I'm starting this vulgar again..
I wish I know ___ better.
WTH! WTF!

I want to be with someone... ='(
But not fit enough huh...

I'm always doing this bullshit things..
God! JUST ONE CHANE is that okay..?

I wanna make my bestfriend smile..
I wanna make him smile..
I wanna do stuff that make people lose their worries.
But. I'm myself crying right now...

ARGH! GOD! I'm begging you..
One chance to make my bestfriend smile
and another to make him happy..

I want to know more about whats happening..
I want to be fitted wherever i go.. So I could
know whats best and whats not.

I believe everywhere we go there's always obstacles you have to go through
right?
I believe that some of us are really strong to go through it and learn from it.
and.. I believe everyone does have a second chance..

{wuw,I sounded like i'm an ex-offender..nope i'm not}

But its ok.. I already been through it alot of times and i think the next time
things will get better.. Is just the matter of time..
give me more time.. to think whats best for her..for him..
and everyone surrounding me..

& whats best for my family..
God.. I guess If you werent let me to live again..
I wouldnt be typing right now..
I guess I would've just died from that accident..
but thank god, you allowed me to live on..
Im grateful..that im still here..

Pls I'm begging you dont make my mum got the feeling I've met an accident
just in da afternoon just now..
Thank God..

I love you,God.
I love you,Mum.
I love you,Dad.
I love you,Sis.
I love you,Bro.
I love you,Syah.
I love everyone else.

And I love you, .....

Goodbye... =)

DAMN BABY!

2008-09-17T23:30:00.001+08:00

Sheesh.. hehe XD.

Look. I cant sleepppp..
And its my 3rd post for the day. Scroll down and you'll see.

LALALA! hahahahahahaha. XD.

LOVE <3

enjoy.

wo ai ni .....(.)

OFF!

2008-09-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

hehe. THIS IS DEDICATE TO MY BASTARD EX. WHICH
I sometimes think he's okay,lovely and stuff.
But after what I've been through.
Listen to this baby.
This is for you.
So What - Pink
haha. I'm strong.
I believe that.
And I believe I don't need you!
I know you're still reading my blog baby.
But get to the point.
If you love me? WHY?
haha. WHY? Oh yeah. erm.
Your I LOVE YOUs,I MISS YOUs.
For me to you is all. I HATE YOUs.
baby,i dont mean to do this. I was trying to love you.
Give you the chance cuz you said you love me.
But it looks. THE OTHER WAY ROUND.

SO WHAT?

Goodbye Love.
haha not love.
BASTARD! HHAHA

=P

BLEAH XD.

I'm gonna show you tonight. I'm alright!
SO WHAT! I'm a rockstar! I got my rock moves!
And I dont need you!!

YEAHH!
XD

2008-09-17T22:28:00.003+08:00

YES.
Ok. I've no mood to blog. Seriously.
But I have no IDEA what I'm doing here right now.
Whatever. Ohkay.

And yes. Science test tmr. Must be very EASY. Chap 12,14,15.
Crap. Ecosystem yada yada yada.

God! Jeremy just sms me after 10 years..
MEN I MISS HIM!

WAHHH.. I love you cher! haishhh...
after 5 years of not seeing him. zzz =_=
I wish he could teach English for my class..
AGH! I WANT TO SEE HIM.. Miss him nia..
He always save me from bully when I'm at primary sch ne..
haishh.. =)
Miss those days ok ok.

Well ytd. Went to study. A whole group lalalala XD.
Nvm. Forget abt that part.

FINALLY

understand what in the world IS Subset.

ok ok.. Dont laugh. I know its weird for a person like me not to understand that CHICKEN topic. But men.

I really can't help it listening to the way Mr Lim teach me. =X

oops. YEAH. RIGHT!

Oh I almost forgot. Sry Syah today can't go study with you.
My mum ask me help her lah.. Sry..

pai sei le. I want study sia.. SCIENCE TEST TMR. LALALA XD.
And here I am blogging and gulping one cup of Milo like nobody business.

~SWEET~

lalala XD. OK OK. Lemme DEFINE "MY" EMO.

EMO

Equal
Mood
Orientation!

I've got good guts from a good family with a good life.
And good best buddies. And a "good" school with "good"
teachers. Cuz they always give me ASS PATTIES.

Okay. CRAP. lets move on. Mic check 1,2,3.

Ehem ehem.

And yes!!!
I've just finish another song.

I shall not post it out men! haha. Pai sei la.
EEE. Why do I type it out so GAY-LY.

Its because I'm happy.

GAY = HAPPY!

haha XD

2008-09-15T18:55:00.005+08:00

HAHA! Ok.
I just came back from Cycling and Basketball-ing!
HAHAHAHAH! LOL. I tried calling Benson, thought of going
a FAR distance somewhere with bike. But someone didnt pick up the phone.
LOL. =_= nvm! haha. I shall do it next time. Ok.
Just now met 3 of my juniors. As in FTPPS.
Not Beatty. haha. Went to play with em' was fun even they are kinda
lame. But not to say anything.

and and. Before that there's this small little cute girl
playing at the Beatty playground that area. Then when I was on my
way home with Sheila,Hanisah,Aini and Myself. She looked at me and
said. " Can you play with me?"

ahahas. And the others all stop look at me. =_=
And I said " Why not? But it'll be a short one alright?"
She said. "okay. Lets play Marco Polo." I was like ~ YARE?? ~
NANI? My mind was wondering,
~What in the world is that? Or I've could forget what IS that?~

Then nevermind. Sasuke came down and I heard someone calling me "KAKASHI"!
~NANI?~ Ah. Sokka.
yare yare Sasuke baka desu. haha. iie iie. JK.
Oh yeah.
Then then Before that.

was my ENGLISH ORAL!

And it.... was

AMAZING

It went smoothly and PERFECTLY

BUT! I'm afraid of one thing. FAILING!

NVM. I'm so pissed now.

I'm CONFUSED!
I'm STRESS!
I'm PISSED!
I WANT TO CHILL.
but. CANT!

And.

I AM NOT EMO!

Please. I'm not EMO. I AM now a HAPPY-GO-LUCKY girl.
I wanna think positive even tho I am very random at times.

GOD. BLESS ME. haha.
Oh well. At first when I see YOU cry.
Yeah. It makes me SMILE!
After a while when I see YOU cry.
I feel BAD for a while.

But then I just SMILE!!!

haha. Its good that I'm random. So people wouldnt really know whether I'm really
serious,sad,happy,angry,moody,sleepy,hyper,or anything else.

I AM R A N D
O M

Haish... ok ok. Lemme see. I've learnt something from Ching Na.

tell yourself. Its gonna be a better day tomorrow. And make sure you are
into on making the next day a better day. =))

ahaha. thats credits for Ching Na!

And Congrats to Aisyah for joining my club for having a PSP now.
=)))

Glad to hear that. ^^

OK ok. I wanna go chill at the bathtub hehe. XD

LALALA XD.
Ok I'm Off!

Enjoy your day readers!

I'm starting to LOVE bloggin' cuz of CHING NA! haha.

=DDD

XD

2008-09-14T18:36:00.002+08:00

Dont ask me why I've been away for a long period of time.
When its not that long too. But quite long too. haha. Ok ok.
Well recently NPCC Kah Wee lose to my debate! AH HAH! hahaha!!
Lol ok ok. Cut the crap. Archery was great I went in 2nd or 3rd if I'm not wrong.
haa~ Not BAD!. haha. lol. Ooookk.. Lemme see

Yesterday which is Saturday.
Let me recall what I do. Oh yeah. Just finish reading 2 books.
Then went to library,chill there for awhile and lalalala XD.
After that in the afternoon I felt DAMN BORED. And
someone is available. So called him down. haha.
Thanks for spacing out your time with me. I'm just bored.
PLAIN BORED> lalala XD.

lemme see today..
Okay got religious class per normal.
Than lalal XD went to see the Police Exhibition at TPI.
Was VERY interesting. Honestly.
ok ok.

Oh well then. Now. At home.
All I could do is to write another new song! haha.
Lemme say. I dunno what to say.
I'm starting to love to CYCLE, because SOMEONE PSYCHO me.
I'm starting to love to play BASKETBALL,THIS is my OWN FAULT for loving
basketball since young. =_='|
I'm starting to love to ~sing&composesong~, because I was inspired by myself. haha.
LOL. XD ok ok.
And surpirising I'm becoming more random. haha.
I just dunno why. I'm beginning to appreciate ladies fashion.
After all i'm not into those AH LIAN and MINAH'S or even THE TYPICAL MALAY OR SINGAPOREANS TYPE OF CLOTHING AR. But more to those American Style. haha.
yeah. ^^

OK oK. THATS WHAT I CALL RANDOM. I'm loving WHITE as much as I love BLACK.
I'm loving BLUE as much as I love RED.
I'm also loving ORANGE as much as I love PURPLE.
And loving PURPLE means I'm GAY!
ANd BEING GAY = Happy! haha.

RANDOM BABY!

OK OK. Im in LOVE with LIFE.
You wanna know WHY?
~SECRET of LIFE. CONFUSED between E.&.B.~

TAKE NOTE:
EXAMS ARE COMING AND I'm NOT SLACKING.

=D

2008-08-31T20:23:00.002+08:00

OK OK OK! hahaha. Yeah!
Wanna say to those MUSLIMS.
Not malays. BUT MUSLIMS!!
Yes! haha. HAPPY RAMADHAN- ING! hhaha. hehehes.
Awsh. I dunno how to put that.
Nevermind. But yep. Im prepared for this month.
The FASTING MONTH. hehe. =))
OK OK.

Tomorrows training... lemme seeeeee...
Oh oh ya ya!!
Haha. After dance go study. After study around 5 to 6.
Go play basketball tahan till 7 plus. Then BREAK FAST!
hahahaha. YEAH! Thats it baby! Move it to the beat!

LOL. XD.
OK ok. HmmM. Im just so happy when this Month is coming.
haha. feel so. HYPER! lalalal XD
And to be honest with you guys.

I NEVER DID like HARI RAYA!
It SUCKS to the CORE!!!
The only thing I like about it..
Is the GET-MONEY-AFTER-VISIT!!

AH HAH! MAGNIFICO DELICIAOSO!
Go to people house,wear normal tees and jeans (for me,no liky formal ;D)
then act guai.. After that MONEY!

HAHAHA! Im not a money face but I just hate the whole thingy.
thats ALL!

Alright cut the chase.
hmm.. Someone has been visiting my blog recently..
i wonder whats HER chase.
haha. Cut it out here.
Alrighty then!
Hmm... Men.. Lets talk about the future.

Okay. Dont worry mommy! I will take Car license but!
I'm taking motor too. Ok. I know you will definitely be angry.
But I think take both license isn't a bad idea too right?
Just in case I'm in a middle of emergency then I've no cars But
my friend is riding a motor. So why not I scramble off like that?
Err... But in a safe way la. haha. =))
Dont worry I will work hard now. I will. =)))
And mayb god allow me to have bright future. I will pray for that of cuz.
My family will be with me whenever I go as in not PHYSICALLY like even
going to the washroom or bed.. zzz =_=
But more to ya know nice places. And stuffs like that. =D

Thats my BIGGEST DREAM EVER!
hehe.
Oh well. Lets talk about cars!
DAMN MEN! IM TELLIN YA! Im gonna get a RED & BLACK or the WHITE AUDI SPORTS
CAR, when i grow up! AND AND FOR MOTOR!
Maybe Im getting the WHITE or BLACK APRILLIA! F-in SwEeeEEeeEeett...
hehehehe.

~~ THUD THUD SHREEEKKKKKK BANG!
--~ CHEK CHEK! ~
BANG--~~~
CEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK..
~~

ViolAtIoN CoMPlEtE. PleASe PrOcEeD On StUDyInG HARD!

YEPPPSSS.
Ok ok. STUDY COMES FIRST NOW! THATS ALL IM THINKING ABOUT.
Seriously.
And DANCE COMES THIRD..

OoOPS I MISS ouT SOMETHING!
The SECOND. will be The studies.
And first will be my life.
Change it!~ haha.

OK OK.

I ShAll Do here announ, thy soul or thee spirit.
May Idayu not to come tomorrow?
Yes,lady Idayu shall come not today but tomorrow.

ehem ehemmmmm2.
ASTALAVISTA BABY!
hehe. I think someone would know what Im trying to follow in that
paragraph above. hehe. HAHA
CIAOS!

OFffF.. TERmInAtEd!

---automatic power logging off--

2008-08-30T14:15:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah! Lemmme sseeee...
Yesterday was teachers day.
haha. My Xuan told me my dance was fantastic. lol.
Was flattered. But I dont take that as a big deal.
Oh well.
yeah. haha. Hmm.. Performance was great. I went disturbing
all the teachers that I know yesterday.
Cuz.. erh. I didnt have presents for them so I think disturbing
them is part of it. >.<

haha. Yeah. ok ok. Then after everything.
Went to meet someone! haha. came down late. zzz
nvm. Had a convo for a while with him, then ciaos.
Hope he can see my next performance. =DDD

yeah. The Return of IDAYU in FTPPS.
Makes a really BIG commotion! haha.
yeah. The moment I entered my school canteen,
I felt Heaven & Earth combines together and bring me to hell!
zzzz.. Ok ok. I really miss the food there but I dont expect
MILO to be FINISH at that point of time!
I just love the MILO from stall 1 at FTPPS.
That is what that made the "Heaven & Earth brings me to HELL".
Fine.
Then I saw someone which pull my eyes away.
He's IHSAN. I CANT BELIEVE HE CHANGED ALOT.
He more handsome now sia. Wah. Then when the first time I saw him
I thought he was just someone who's accompanying
Salwa to FTP back. But he is someone from FTPPS too.
zzz >.< ok ok. cut the chase.

Then saw alot of my buddies.
Haha. Was so exciting!
But unfortunately I cant take photos.
Haish.. =(

Oh well nevermind.

then. I was inform that there will be Dance Training on Mon and Tues.
BUT. Only for people who attended the previous training with the one
that Ms Bee Loon teach. The new choreography.
Thats all. =)

OH SHIAT~~

FcUk. hahahahahahahaha.
NvM. I want go play NBA 08 now. tatatatat!

Offfffff!~~~

2008-08-28T21:13:00.001+08:00

Yeah!! My 100th Post.
Okay fine..
Oh well..
Yeah. I ain't crazy like last time. After an incident I became
a person who wasn't myself.. I wonder why.
Nevermind.

Oh yes.
Yesterday was NPCC parade. Was great.
Played water bombs. haha. yeah. First one to get wet in the whole group.
ZZZ. =P
Oh well. =_='||

Fine. Then after parade behind the scenes. Was IN the toilet.
Then we played again. hehehehehehehe. =P
zzz nvm..

Oh well. Was too tired to blog ytd.
Went to TP bought new memory stick then sleep..zzzzz

TODAY/ 28 August.

Yeah. Had dance training. Wasn't feeling that good. AGAIN.
Because of some people. Who ALWAYS MAKE me FEEL this WAY.

HAH.
Forget it. Nvm..
Ok then. O went and think on positively.
Hoping I could go home smiling.
And yeah. Met my bestfriend along the way home.
Cool. lol. then crap like shit.
ERGH! I just couldnt stop blowing the bubbles.
hehehes. =P
hahah yeah. :P
OK OK. Then went home with a positive mind.
I felt more secure being alone sleeping at home. =)
Oh well.
YEAH YEAH. ALRIGHT.
MY MOOD IS TOTALLY TOMORROW MEN.
TOTALLY.
HAHAHAHA.

OH well...... NEVERMIND.

ok ok. ONCE. My mood is off the hook..

err forget it i want to sleep tata.

2008-08-23T21:30:00.003+08:00

Ok ok i know i know.
My blog is kinda DEAD. haha. aite. im now here to make it alive back. lol.
YEah. Had my performance today. At Bukit Merah. Held at TCT. (TOUCH Community Theatre)
Was there to perform and our item was first.
I was STRESS for the first time. ZZZ. Usually when comes to dance i chill.
But oh well. haha. Guess Im fine with it now.
Had fun with my NDP members. And all I got to say that.
I LOVE THEM VERY MUCH.
yeah. haha. Fcuk. NVm.
Oh well. Planned to study with Aisyah this coming Monday.
Hope it goes out smoothly again.
Yeah. Exams are coming and its really stressing me up with all the stuffs
thats been happening around. haish. oh well.

Cut the story short due to lack of time. zzz.
Oh well. What you see in my expression isnt what you think.
What you think isnt what you expect it to be.
damn. I think you lost it baby.
SHOOOOOOSHHH.

Observe Silence please...

~~~SHREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKkkkkk....~~
-***BANGG!-
~-ChaKCHaK-~
-***BANGG!-
~-ChaKCHaK-~
(Operator Speaking) N - Se7eN is DyiN'.
Please report to your own businesses and stop bullshit-in'.
Ya gat me?
I ain't having fun everyday. Mayb IF only there's someone who's
beside me every second every minute even if i pass out was there to see it everyday.
Then I guess people would FINALLY believe,my life isn't that cheerful as it seems
to be.

yeah.. fine. Im bored now. sheesh.. cut off. freaking exhausted sia.. i cant
tahan. haish... haha..

sheesh.. needa restaaaa..
ciaos. =) off

2008-08-17T18:34:00.003+08:00

OK OK. im gone for awhile. Dont ask me why. Ive no mood to blog.

Ok I'm sorry Bea for delaying your entry.

OK OK.
This is FOR YOU BEA!
THE ONLY GIRL WHO SMILES REALLY WIDE WHEN SOMEONE IS THERE. ;D
hehehe.
Yep. She's a great girl with great personality.
I've got to say that she's a photoshop expert. =PP

yeahp. yeahp.
She's also someone i can approach when we have hard time facing something!
hehe.
That kind of thing ya know.
LOL.
Well. yep. Gotta say that she's blur at times. =P
hahha no offense. BUT.
Her blur always came up with something good.
A good dancer. =)
Yep. And a very good friend indeed. =)

Sheesh.. I shall continue next post...
GTG....

P.S: Always putting a mask above the real expression..

2008-08-08T22:26:00.003+08:00

Just Change skin. yes. haha. =DDD
LOL. really had fun today.. Of Cause
you should know with who.. MY BROTHERS!
BEST AMONG THE BEST of CUZ MY BEST BUDDIES DOES TOO and
MY BESTFRIEND. =))

Well ytd. We went to Bishan chill there then the Library.
Thats where I get to irritate my brothers playin' Monster Hunter! ^^
haha.

Ok well back to today.
Went to Mac just now. Then me and Sheila didnt ate enough so grabbed more food
there. Lol. The others were as usual ate then went to Hunt.
haha. yeap.
Lol. then after all the fun.
Went to accompany Afi cut his new hairstyle. ^^
LOL. The style looks like Yao Yuan's hairstyle also. haha.
What can you say brothers mah. Just waiting for Nevins turn. =DD
Oh well. Disturb Nevin just now while waiting for Afi.
He's the one playin' the PSP I'm the one screamin' so loud hopin' he could win.
zzz. +.+
hahas. yeah. lol. But was nice pressin' his nose. =P
Oh well.
Then they came to my place and chill.
lalala XD.
After a few hours Yao Yuan call me.
~~~Idayuuu.. Got AVP? Can come your place?~~
hahaha. of cuz I say yes. zzzzzzz =_=
then he came played with Afi and Nevin.
They left my place abt 6 - 6.30.. ard there la..
hahaha. Aisyah was there too but she left a little earlier.
haha. =DD
Yeahs. Really had a great time tho. ^^
Though and even glad to hear a news from Clara. Congrats. =))
haha. yeah. oh well. Just finish watching The Mummy. The latest one of cuz.
haha. YEP! DAMN nice the show.. =))
Must watch again soon. =P
Oh well. Now is my time to watch Honey with my sis. Then mayb I show off to her
My breakin' and poppin' moves.. haha.
Show her I CAN do lockin' betta now!!!!
MUAHAHHAAHAHAHA. =)
ok ok. lalalala XD.

GTG. tata. >.<
TaKe care readers.

2008-08-03T17:39:00.003+08:00

haha lol.
Shikamaru and Naruto..
dont worry. Me and Aisyah are fine. Do you think we really fight over small stuff.
Nah. I dont even think anything can make us fight easily ar..
7 years. Should Knw each other well more than anyone nia..
haha.. And yeah.. Wuw.
Guess my tagboard has been polluted. Lol.
Men.. haishhh haha.
well people nowadays.. We do nice things to em'
they do this to us. Oh well haha.. I wont entertain it.. I Lazy ar.. haha
yeah.. And Romeo. Thanks about ytd men. You made me feel better.. =))
We'll watch Initial D later at 8.45 haha. Ill ring you up aite. =D

Oh well.. haha. Guess what.
Im happy with my friends that i have now. And I LOVE em.
=P

kks. I going to Aisyah's place to chill.. Cioas

2008-07-31T22:40:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY! GUYS!
Im sad over something. But smiling is my forte! [Stole frm Xin Hui. P.S: Hope you dont mind]

ANYWAYS. Just finish breakdancin'. and guess i can do the move : 1990 a little.
thats hot men. Still polishin' my windmill. |
Yeps. Men. IM TOTALLY LOVING HIP HOP FOREVER MEN!
Tomorrow's official opening. Men. Must show off ar. ahhaa. JK JK.
Lol. today was great? i think. in sch lol. yeah. haha..
Was in the music room waiting fo' our queue to dance next fo' the rehearsal.
So yeah. I went rappin' on with the musics that've been played then
dance hip hop with Afi. haha. We paired up during the hip hop dance.
Then we did some breakin' too. Men. Im Off THIS HOOK. Really wish could see
darl's flare which he wanna show off to me. =P
lalala XD.

Oh anyways I found some hot fo' show off group men. Saw it in Youtube. Check tis out!

Cool aint they!?
Wish I could have this kind of dance group. Men they're off the hook!!!
I've got another! Their finalist performance! Check tis out den'!

Look!! At How f'in nice their BREAKIN' are men!!!
Holy SHOUTS! DAMN!

AND YEAH!

Y'ALL BETTA' CHECK TIS' OUT!!! F"IN NICE SHIT MEN!
THIS BRITAIN GUY WAS FANTASTIC!!!

His my BIGGEST IDOL FO' DANCIN'

MEN SHIT! I'M SALUTIN' MEN! DAMN BROTHA! POWER!!!!

I admire him sia! Holy y'all men this fella iz just 4teen and he's havin'
the crowd hell yow chantin' his name out men! GEORGE SAMPSON!
DAMN! HIS MY AGE! cant you believe it. He's fantastic. Men I love the way he moves!
LOL. =P
yeah. dammit men! Make me wanna break at night. LOL.
Y'all get what i mean. hahaha. yeah.
OKOK.

Cant wait to see my gang tomorrow. and hell yow im gonna chill out with ma sis now!
CIAOS!

I'M OfF CHuMP!
SKIDDIN!

kk. byessss readersssss...

Why.... Sooo... Serious....???

2008-07-26T20:50:00.003+08:00

fucking stress with life....

If i learn something from this...
it would all be gone..it would all be gone..

When City meets the Sea ;D (someone recently who's close to me will know this)

But dammit men...
Sick of it...

Shiaaaatt~~~

Tuesday's training. I'll surely to be present there.
yes. absolutely. i will.

damn lah... got an accident... i dont even think someone cares abt it..
aft what happened ytd...

menn.... arrr...cant type much now... working only with one hand...
yeah...

Offf

2008-07-18T08:35:00.002+08:00

Ok OK! NOH! has requested something.
And I shall do it.. ZZZ =_=
OK OK! HEY HEY!
YoU All wanna know something!!??
Noh IS HOT!!!
HE IS DAMN HOT!
I stand beside him can pespire sia!
HAHAHAHAH!
YEAH YEAH! lol. zzz =_=
then then then then!
Wah sey.. He pass by all my outside friends ar..
Wah SWAY SIA! All of em' scream for him men!!
WAH SEI! SIBEH CANNOT TAHAN!
=P
Sia! I THINK only hor. He's HOT AR!
SHEESH! ...
Really cannot tahan.

ok ok. is that enough??

NONO! Then ar. I go school.
I went to asked my friends.
Is Mohd Noh hot??
WAH THEY ALL SCREAM SIA!
Scream YES?!
=_=
ZZZ ENOUGH NOT, HUH NOH?
hhahahaha. =DD
kks.
I SHALL SUAN ABT HIM NOW!

MOHD NOH SIAO!!
MOHD NOH CRAZY! (no diff as the top one isnt it?)
MOHD NOH STEP HOT!
hahhaa. ok ok la..
Nvm i see him small ar.. I close one eye ar..
HAHA BROTHER DONT CRY HOR!

This post is all ABT YOU! MOHD NOH! hahahah!

haha k lah k lah..
I gtg. I in school ar.. Cant post alot of stuff abt you. lol.

hahah i shall REALLY SUAN ABT YOU NEXT POST!

=D
TATA! CALL ME AFTER YOU READ. THEN CRAP LIKE THAT TIME AITE. =DDD

2008-07-16T22:21:00.002+08:00

What goes around come back around...
I thought I told ya.. yeah...

Let me spill another vulgar recitation..
Sometimes I tend to say.. Somethings are just like a prohibition..
Speaking out the truth and telling out all my confession..
Men.. ay yo.. that isn't a passion..nor a sensation..
Fuck all those.. Idiotic fools out there...
those who was trying to make others life crazay..
"Last Night.. tried callin'.. All I get was a busy tone..
C'mon spit it out.. haha don't tell me you didn't hear your phone?!"
Fuckers and Bitches who thinks life and your love ones are likes Sex Pistol!
Listen up and pay attention! Before you got aids or even a simple cold.
Think twice.
I would advice.
Look! If you think playin' and actin' around your love ones and in life is cool?
heh.. More like you people doesn't know the real meaning of a fool!
Want some definition!?
oops. Lemme bring up this sensation.
Yeah... Okay.. Here I go again.. It sounds im like over reactin'..
But after everythin'..
Just keep on readin'..
ill say out this...

"You spent your nights alone and she never comes home..
And every time you call her all you get is a busy tone..
I heard you found what she's doin' to you.. What you did to me..
And thats the way it goes.. You cheated bastard..my heart is all bleedin'..
So keep goin' and i'll be sayin' you'll be feelin' hurt..
This is a classic game.. A scenario.. Hey boy im tellin' ya..
You got what you deserved and you now want somebody..
To cure your lonely nights...To have somebody to make you just feel right..
Boy ain't somebody.. Its like a circus thing..
So what goes around come back around..
I thought I told ya.. yeah...:

It was song..
Yeah to me it doesn't sound wrong..
Think about it twice.
This is what you call some of the guys..
I didn't say all of em'.. Some is still nice..
This is an example of what you call they think their love ones are Sex Pistol.
Fuck men! Didn't you guys ever think what would they feel?
C'mon guys.. Im trying make it right.. make you feel that is real..
Its reality.. They're still human beings fucker!
We got feelings?! Am I Right!?
We sometimes also do need to peel off the paint off from the high ceiling?!
Am I right?
We do have problems that we need to face..
In order to perfect ourself in this life.. Which looks like an Amazing race!
sit and think about it again..
If you were to hurt them.. What do you gain..?
They gain pain.. Some of em' even do crazy stuff.. Men are you insane?!
You make em' feel that way.. You'll eventually realised that.. "men.. I've should make their days."
But am I too late?
too late to change? too late to turn a new life..?
men.. nah fuckers... im not nagging..
Im just saying..
cuz lemme tell ya something..
this is what thats i've been observing..
Its now all happenin'..
to our surroundin's..
And if you were to be one of da victims..
It wouldn't do great to you livin'..
It'll keep you stressin'..
Now look.. You might think that I'm crappin'..
but seriously.. Think.. Your loved ones.. really sacrifice alot for ya..
But what do ya return to da kindness? A fool who is laughing at their tears and
say " haha. what a losA!"
FUCK MEN! FUCK SHIT! FUCK YOU!
FUCK IT MEN!
THINK! FEEL! REALISE! ITS REALLY ISN'T NICE!
men.. damn it men..
I didn't meant to spill vulgar no more..

But please.. All i want is to see.. What makes my loved ones happy..
Would you guys really want to see someone who you dearly love
cry and cry.. And I'm not trying to talk bullshit..
After they cry.. What if its too late and they leave us?
You know DIE?
Men.. just please guys.. really I'm begging you..
I had enough of seeing that..

this is just expressed out with my words..
But seriously if i happened to see that happenin' to my loved ones..
MEN.. THOSE PEOPLE ARE SERIOUSLY FUCKING DEAD SHIT!
You MESS WITH EM' YOU'RE MESSIN' WITH ME..
If that person happened to read my blog..
Remember what happened to my dearly aunt who loves me so much..and not here no more?!
REMEMBER WHAT YOU DID TO HER!
AND WHAT I DID TO YOU!?
YEAH YOU WANT ANOTHER VISIT AT THE ALEXENDRA HOSPITAL!?
YOU WANT MOTHERFUCKER?!
FUCKER SIA!
SERIOUSLY!
YOU FUCKING MADE HER LEAVE ME! YOU FUCKING MADE GOD TAKE HER BACK!
YOU'RE FUCKING DEAD!

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me tonight.. I feel so..
Fuck.. So vulgar..
Im sorry men.. I'll apologies for that...
I'm just so sad when I think about some stuff....

But yes.. I'm not trying to be arrogant,gangster like,haolian or stuff like that..
I'm not that type of person..
I'm just serious about this situation..
Cuz a friend of mine had experienced it and I was there for her and him
all along.. I was there to witnessed...
And I guess thats what make me more serious person now..

Just ... Sorry guys.. alright..

offf.....

"WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND" by J.T. inspired by his song...

2008-07-13T17:40:00.002+08:00

FUCK.
NO ONE WAS THERE when I NEED HELP.
and WHEN THEY NEED HELP they EXPECT ME TO BE THERE.
Im not referring to My bestfriend. Thats for sure.
Im not referring to my Best buddies.. THATS FOR SURE.
IM REFERRING TO SOME PEOPLE OUT THERE. WHO DOESNT EVEN CARE
WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENIN TO THE WORLD. yes..
that kind of people.. well..
its really really stressing me out..
GOD HELP ME OUT!
FINE! SEE.
My throat is killing me..
Im so stressed out that nearly everyday IM CRYING!
WTH!? I just dunno what to do!!!!!!
DUN ASK ME WHAT THE HLL IM THINKING...
DUN EVEN ASK WHY AM I BEING THIS WAY..
Im just sick of whats happenin...
Fine.. lets forget abt this..

As time goes by..
NDP is coming..
For me.. Its not the beginning..
Its an Ending..
To all the fun and all the happenings...
And when I passes by the flats,houses,shops and the streets..
And I saw the Singapore Flag..
The more and more i saw em..
the more sad I became..
Why does it have to end so soon...
Why must it be this way..
Why must it be 9 of August...
When we have to end our fun days..

I felt so emo when I heard 9 of August is going to be a FUN day for us.
Yes. Yep. Its true.. But came to think it..
The fun that we had,is going to end..
When I went to this NDP trainings..
The CR 1 and CR 2.
NE 1 and NE 2.
And all the previous trainings we had..
I dunno what to say or how to describe..
But they are the GREATEST FRIENDS I EVER HAVE IN MY LIFE!
Gotta be honest..

yeah.. That is where I found my GREAT FRIENDS. haha. Yep. Myb Lev.
Myb, alot more. hahaha. yeah.. Im so emo.. now.. cant blog alr.
Im gonna miss all of em..

OFFF

2008-07-04T08:32:00.003+08:00

hey guys im back.. yeah.. i damn bored now.. its DNT now
and im bored to death.. lol. haha. yeah. he's crapping at da front.
and im here blogging at the back. nice. haha.
oh well. yeah.. hey guys today im blogging abt some stuffs.
yep. life's been great.
havin a bad fever right now.. yeah.. haha.
lol. lalalal XD. ok yo.
sup. i heard rumors people saying to oth that ive got a guy?
hahah nope.. i dont have one aite.. lol.
who would want me sia?? damn.. lalla. Anyways.
My heart is really dead and HE was the last guy that I like.
But tend to think again. haha. I rather just be myself and I.
Felt better that way. lalal.
yeah. Reminds me of Beth. I wanna be like her. She damn good la.
Hip Hop sia!!
hahhaa. den she also like me her heart damn dead.
lalalal XD.
oh well. yeah..
haha ytd was Be Yourself Day!
was great dress up as myself yep.
Guess what! HIP HOP AR!!!
Lol. Ay men! Im a hip hoper yow!
You want listen to rap? hahah. ill throw alot of it.
till i collapse!
hahha aite. I shall post some pic i took ytd. lol. ahahha
but not now. im in sch sia!!
HAHAHA. Ok oK
I gtg. lalalal XD
ok aite. ciaos!! ^^

2008-06-29T12:51:00.002+08:00

haish.. tired with ytd training.
Oh well. Yeah. Went fer the cosplay it was cool!!!
Took pictures With Bea! haha. Scared of that Darth Vader.
lalalala XD.
well shall post it one day.
And yeah. Got somethings home from there.
Oh okeeeyy. Cool. haha.
yeah. Oh well. It was fun and everything except some stuff. lalalal XD.
ok ok.
hmm. Overall life was ok and fine.
In fact,life is great with the friends that i had.
Oh well. Yeha. i reallly dunno what to post tho.
Even tho there's alot of things to post.
zzz. +_+
wakakaks. Men.. Still I dont get it.
Dino! You will always forget to return my glove!
Fir! Nvm. You did noth wrong.
Ebal! Thanks fer the burning help men! =D
Hattri!? Chill aite stay cool. Dont be so angry on next training.
Keshia! Stop imitating me.. ZZZ =_= hehe.
Lily! haha. Ill continue the havoc!
Liza! When I grow Up!?
Bea! Darth Vader attack!!
Afi! Cheorography! ANd the sWiT thingy! zzz you always get to the point to disturb me.
Remy! Miki! LAlala Cool Specs huh!? I shall take it away frm you! MUAHAHAH!
Fal! Why so silent ah!?
Petrina! OooPs! Soemone cut their hair! look a little bit more DIFF? haha.
WOw! I think I should cntinue it next post. zzz.
Oh well next Saturday is NDP Preview! HAHA.
Excited but true. But men! The shirt we are wearing is like Power Rangers!
But oh well its cute! hahaha. alallaa XD.
ok ok. gtg. got to hit the hoops now! Bye!! =D
Take care My Beloved Readers!

2008-06-22T19:52:00.003+08:00

FUCKING PISSED OFF bcuz of ytds training.
FUCK SHIAT! BLOODY MAJOR CHANGE BUT THE MAJOR was NOT even a MINOR.
heh. then come back home read something made me more pissed.
So decided to break two bottles. Glass bottle to throw my anger..
AWAY. haha.. yeah.. FUCK THOSE SUCKERS..
FUCK EVEN THE FUCKERS. zz. EXTRAs. HAHA.
SHIT LA! Make me spill all ypes of Vulgar at my use to be clean blog.
But now its ruin by some people who's envious abt what the hell is happenin to me.
GRRR.
Haishh... really men.. For the FIRST TIME IN MY 13 YEARS of Life.
I had to actually SCREAM FUCK YOU! When i was playing basketball with Aisyah
just now. Well not to her. But to some people. zzz
Bloody Crap men!
You! Ill be HONEST for now! I can Only trust. 12 PEOPLE for NOW!
DAMN IT MEN! I wont tell who I trust. But haha. You wouldnt ExPEct
Me to name out the people I trust.
Cuz. When I name out their names. Some of your names are not in.
So YA. HAHA.
SUCKERS. DONT EXPECT ANY APOLOGY FROM ME!

Ok. Lemme Throw a RAP record entitled : Never Say Never

Forfeit the Game,
before somebody else takes you out of the frame,
put your name to shame,
cover up your face,
you can't run a race,
the pace is to fast,
it just wont last,
You love the way,
I say I'm okay,
And love the way I look at you,
But you just dont know the pain you put me through,
I'm sick of all your stupid fucking bitch!
Your stupid attitude and other stuff you do, like ditch?
Dont Expect any apoogies from me,
I ain't in the blame Homie!
I'm not even acknowlogin you at all.
Drop it off men, get off from me, dont talk to me at all!
You used to say this and hat,
Fuck This and Fuck That!
In my mind ima fighter,
My heart is like a lighter,
No suckers ,im not sorry.
You can all sue me, no remorse on me,
Laugh fuckers yeah itsall funny!
But thats to you men it aint workin on me,
Run from life , yeah you guys just keep on running,
I wont do that! I'll just stay and wait for a call saying,
God is Coming.
Expect no sympathy from me,
Cuz my heart is just as romzeas it can be,
And Never Say Never to me cuz I wont say any apology.

Alright Im done with my Rap.
I read soemthing that Afi typed out!
Men Afi you are so sweet. hehe Thanks best buddy!
Having a bestfriend since young is having a bestfriends til old.
Loving EVeryone ive got. Escialy those wo are really important to me.
Anyways ths is for Afi an Aisyah.
No matter what men. Ill be there for you guys! okay. So cheer up.
No one is to be left behind.

Same goes to my other friends alright! Love you guys! But yet still.
This isnt for SOMEONE. Is for my oth friends except for one FELLA.
SOme should know who. MUAHAHJAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Oh well.
gtg an paint some stuff. Im OfF!
TaKe Care EveryOne! =D

2008-06-19T08:07:00.002+08:00

yeah! haha. wonder why im here early in da morning.
guess what this is da second time i was baked by the noise surround me.
yes. BAKED. not WAKE. haha. oh well. NP was nice recently..
Took my CD course. lol. It was ok. Benson took us, and it was alright. =)
oh well. whatever is. What happened recently was nice.
Went out till late at night tho haha.
But yeah.. it was fun.. but oh well.. During NP i had to leave early. zzz
Ok tell ya guys something crazy happened.
Went out with my bestfriend yesterday. To watch movies ard 5pm liddat?
Yeah after ive settle somethings.. Oh well. Aftr watching da movie i walk with her
towards Paragon. Wanting to meet my dardar. But he cant make it for the last min.
Say it was family stuff. And even today. Cuz HTA calls him down. zzzz =_='||
Oh well yeah. Then she saw this hottie walking and she was like. AYU AYU!
DID YOU SAW THAT HOTTIE!>?
I was like.. yeah.. Okay.. He's Hot.. HAHA.
Then she say. I wanna say HI to him!
I was like go ahead. No harm saying hi to him. so why not?!
Yeah. then we was walking and i was totally looking at the Topshop stuffs.
Was totally into it. And she was totally into him and yeah.
The first thing happened was. I BANG into a wall and fell. zzz =_=
And the second is. I BANG into a SINGH!? WTH!?
WTH!? WTF! WTE! WTY! WTG! WTS! WTV! WTB! WTN! WTK! WTL! WTA! WTU! <<< (Aini's Fav) HAHA =PP
SHEESH! He really sound like our Singh in Beatty. zzz
That makes it more sway.. zzz. oh well.
Yeah. haha. crap la de! hahahahaha.
But that was what happened ytd.
But oh well. Guess this is where my journey ends for today.
But guess ill be back later tho. lalalaland XD.
Aite. Im off to school now. But still. I Wonder..
i wonder what im wonderin about.
I thinkin what am i thinking about.
I had an idea but but not sure what was my idea about.
So.. YEAH. ILL STOP CRAPPING MY LAMO STUFF HERE.

THE END. [PART 1] =D

2008-06-13T20:49:00.002+08:00

hey! Im back! and yes!
its true! y'all gotta know this and yes.
im a NARNIA fan!! weeee~
*people applausing to my fanatic*
yesh yesh yesh!
haha oh well. lets blog then.
yeah. yeah. i had this dream. yes and i knew.
ytd night was a night. that changes my life.
yes. and yes. I FINALLY FINISH MY DEF JAM!!!
WoOOooOtS~~~
hahahahahs. lol. Night is so handsome. haha. He's my character.
lol. But cant win my Prince Caspian! haha.
reminds me of my cat haha. >>.<<
oh well.
Im really going crazy now. lalalaland XD
oh well.. ive really got noth else to post.
but yeah i remember.
thursday? well ytd. yeah. haha.
Me and my gang went for PAKOR! haha.
zzz. yeah. lol. we went on sliding at the staircase at tpy.
lol. really had noth betta to do men. lalalala.
but it was fun. and after that i was on my way home when i found myself climbing for staircase to staircase and sliding there and here. wakakakas.
oh crap then. i shall make another DEF JAM character! haha lol.
aite! im off men!
CMON MEN! LETS BOUNCE!
~off chumps~

2008-06-06T14:09:00.002+08:00

Im back.. after my long lost journey outside alone..
Felt a LITLLE bit better.. but just a little.. yeah..
What happened recently.. was amazing and nice..
Fun and Enjoyable.. but. Tiring.
yes. it is.
Neways.. Yesterday something weird happened..
Well after what happened at home during my long deep scary sleep.
i went to a place to eat my dinner..
Yeah. then when i was on my home, i saw this guy. But i tend to ignore.
but I didnt get to. I went staring at him, eventually, unexpectedly,
he turn and stare at me back..
We tend like to know each other very well but not sure from where.
I dont know his name. He doesnt even know mine.
Well, he started smiling and swinging his finger showing that he does know me.
Well i did the same thing too. But strange thing was that..
Ive met him before. he met me before. We never talked to each other before.
But we remembered each others face.. Strange..
But I just know.. Im gonna meet him again. After next two years..
Same time. SAme date, same place..
A little bit like leap years right..
yeah..
I just know that..

Off...
SecRet (Unrealeased)

2008-05-10T21:40:00.003+08:00

hey ya sups.
Im back of cuz. Ive been away ova a few weeks.
Damn.. haha.. yeah.. recently.. dance..
men.. you know something happened to me and the song really
got to do with it. Thats why i change to this song..
Yeah..you know ive been for dance training recently. yeah.
and there was one part.. I was chilling out.. Then there's this guy..
Nah, i donnu abt him.. But he is
hot. I really dont know him. No feelings for him too but when I was
chilling out.. He walks up to me slowly and whisper to me saying
'I know who you are..'
then he walk away smiling.. Men.. and he winks at me..
I was blank. He made me lose control tho.. Damn..
WTH!? HALOO? I dont even know him how did he know me?
Then.. Suddenly.. after i wanna head back home.. this one was already outside
training.. didnt know he was at the same place as me.. but suddenly.
he walks behind me and say.. Ill be waiting for ya.
I turn and say. Wait till ya wanna.. See if ya can get me.
THEN AR!? I THOUGHT THAT CAN PISS HIM AWAY YA KNOW!? BUT THEN AR!
DAMN!
HE SAID BACK. "I got ya number.. DOnt worry, ma dear.."
FCUK!? SHIAT!~~~
fine. forget about him. He sucks! even tho he's hot. nah. not gonna fell
fer him. Bleah XD.
seriously.. well.. ytd training was fun!
HAHA. We dance as if we are in a club men.. lols.
haha. and previously was. Christina and Liza's Birthdays!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHA> =)))
Well hope you guys like the gifts i bought.
LOl. AND WE BOUGHT!. haha. yeps.
But seriously..about that guy.. men.. the situation really sound
as if we are making the stupid music video for the song Killa by Cherish ft. Young Joc!
damn... i hate it yow..
Well gotta admit. Its shocking to be in that situation ya know..
Aint cool..
Well.. Nelson and Zero ask for a dance. I'm like. WTH IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYs!?
First that time at fork and spoon!? 3 malay guys wanna ask for my number?!
CRAZY SIA! then Aini somemore can laugh at me.. zzzzz.
damn she was there to witness everything tho. haha.
Second. Was this hottie who tries to say that he knows who am i!? when i dunt even know him!?
And Third, Nelson and Zero wanna dance with me. and its not those normal dance baby.
I got to say. is the you know... well.. you know...
hahhaha. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! damn.. but oh well. its fun tho.
hahaha. kks. gtg. blog more next time. tata. ^^

2008-05-04T19:07:00.003+08:00

men baby..ive not been blogging for the past few centuries..DAMN..
ahaha. ok ok. lemme tell ya something abt friday.. it was nice.
haha. seriously. our class does not treat exams as exams.
they were so noisy and stuffs. Andy making funny noises and even
made Ms Lee laugh when she wasnt suppose to. yeah.. thats crap for sure..
after that we have our paper one right? yes. thats where the nasty and
fun part comes. We all have extra papers, to be specific, foolscap?
yeah. they crushed it. and threw it at me. WTH!?
yeah.. men. i got bullied on that day! WTH!? haha. WTH!?
well aint that horrible. it was quite fun tho. yeah. and they continued for quite
awhile. damn guys... zzzz okay okay..
that was what happened in the morning.
not to forget.. on that 2nd MAy..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS WU AND ZAMRI!!!!!
hahha. yeah. lol.
ok ok..
at night........
DANCE! FREAKING NICE LAH CAN!?
my dads car brokedown. i was so happy finally i can go there by MYSELF!
FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE! FREEDOM! I smell freedom which thicken my nose with gold.
damn~~~ haha jk jk.
but it was nice. hahaha dance then play games with Remy, Utt and stuffs.
hahaha. COoOOoOLllLL!
lol. then the most boring part is, on my way home.
Terrible. BUS 13 from Bedok Camp to Toa Payoh. IS HORRIBLE.
we already waited there for like half an hour and the bus took. ONE HOUR to
reach at tp? wtf? me and afi were like damn sian for that stupid bus trip!
DAMNnN! we went off from bedok camp at 10.00pm exactly.
the Bus came at 10.30pm.
it took us about 11.40pm reach at toa payoh cause we missed one of our stop so
have to depart in front RI. then walk home like one kunyang like that.
Eventually i stepped in front of my house door at exactly 12.00AM!
men.. im like so exhausted but oh well. went to watch
The World Wildest's Commercials at channel 5.
men i think you guys should watch it. its every weekend at 12.ooam.
men. its nice and stupidiest show i ever watch but its good for entertaining!
hahaha. men. aite. gtg. tomorrow is maths paper 1! i gotta break a leg now.
and die for tml. Ciaos.

2008-04-26T10:10:00.002+08:00

well well..
saturday morning!?
haha. great all i can say.
hmm yeah THURSDAY. men.. went up to stage for that stupid fashion SHOW!?
yeah. i look like one retard tho. damn baby... sheeesh...
haha. white thrash bag? red rafia ropes? men.. Im a retard on that day.
really.
well yesterday. nothing much. sci. art. then lalalalal.
after that in the afternoon got malay oral.
AIYA! DEAD! i went caught up half way through.
DAMN! i mix my malay with some english words! WTH!?
WTG! WTF! WTY! WTU! WTE! WTR! WTQ!~
aiya.. scared i fail. damn.. but when i ask. cher says no one fail.
haha. ok ok. thats a good news. lol. anyways.
in the afternoon. ard. 4 plus going 5.
hang out wit aini and sheila. we find out the
idiots who tried to fool around with my sis.

LEMME TELL YA THIS.
if you fool around with my family or now my sis.
come on,show me your face.
what you guys have no balls to resist.
men, you guys are pathetic.
and sooo dramatic.
when i ask what ya name?
and you are so sarcastic.
well now i got to say is..
one more time.
you do this to my sis.
lets meet ya outside.
and settle this..

men.. it ryhmes yow!

2008-04-23T21:16:00.002+08:00

well2. well2.
haha life's been great even tho yesterday was feeling low.
But just wanna say thanks to Afi and Keshia! haha..
^^ well mayb Rio for understand-ing me this morning. haha.
haha yeah.. thanks for the sms yeah. hahhaa.
ok ok. yesterday hmmm... what happened ar??
Oh yeah!
well in the morning
haha home econs! LOL.
We took alot of photos. men., I love Mdm Huzaifah! HAHHA. She's great men!
can take out phone in class. can hear song. can go crazy! haha. she
took a photo with me and aini tho!. HAHA. +))
lols. kks. well after that ar.. wah crap alot during science until
teacher go headache HAHA. Ms Lee. Ms Lee... hai8shh kena jack everytime..
hahaha. =P
yeah then crap the whole day.
In the afternoon.
Went out with him to Study. wah. patrol library like one kunyang.
both of us go up,down. up,down. then decided to sit at the kiddy corner.
HAHA. =PP after for a moment then he decide to move to McDonalds. men..
that took him long enough to think. lol. =P
yeps. study study till 5.40pm liddat then slowly walk to interchange.
yeah then skali met Yong Zhi. hhaha. Then RACIST. zzz
well, eh you must jia you on your test de lah. doesnt mean you cant do jc math right.. haha hope you do well next time..
i dun even understand what they talking sia. nevermind.. im used to it when
i hang out with my brothers! hahha. jk jk.
well at night. was a little bit emotional. haha. but overall is okay.
I think im a bit tired and stress. and i cant believe i gave Rio a
moody face. but at least i talk to him alr. so i guess we are fine with it.
=))
well yeah. then today. everyone went crazy.
haha it was good tho tml i have to be one model for stupid earth day show!
DAMN! haha. but it'll be funny guess my class and 2N2 students will be
laughing like one mad k siao like that =))
haha kks. gtg. Take care readers!

2008-04-20T12:56:00.002+08:00

haha it think today is....
RiO birthday!!
HAHA HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIO!!! WooOOO!
Previously was Jeff's Birthday!! HAHA. not from beatty one.. but
Holland! HAHA.
17 April,Thursday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFF!!
hehe. So HyPEr! PerNoRmAl!
Talk to him ytd on the phone in the afternoon.. both like
one kunyang. He how lian me always ony. Say i how lian lah. then
when i say where got still say how lian. =_= nvm la.
hahahha he happy, i happy, he sad, i sad. He jump down down the building.
I look down and say 'WAH!? Sure die one!' haha no la, jk jk. Ill be there
to stop him men!! Here come the heroine
*superman background soundtrack*
haha kks. You know Friday Freaking FUN AH!
FFF~ Friday Freaking Fun!
ok ok. haha. wahlao! I pai sei sia!
I think Wilson have been watching me all this while. Cuz soemtimes during practise.
I would just love to do popping and dance per normal my own freestyle.
then ar.. that time finish training. Wilson say those who wants to like join
under the special abilities corner for the performance step up.
So Chris,Afi and I when up to have a look. Lol. yeah,after a while ar..
They went to make a circle. We were just standing outside the particular circle
to just WATCH only. ok WATCH only.. but then ar.. after one by one perform their
own ability.. silence took over.. Wilson suddenly look at me.
then i say.. "no no. Im not going out there to dance alone. Not yet prepare.
haha later i got out." but no. he kept pulling me,the more i go back,
the more he pull me up!?! zzz ,men. yeah then he push me to the middle of the circle and say
"her ability is Popping! come on make some noise!"
men i was super pai sei lah then. Nvm.. I dance! YES! I dance alone! WoOOO!
it was fun tho! AHHA.
yepss. waakakkakas. dance dance dance then Jen call me up and talk abt dance yeah.
lol. after that. the hall beginning to be dark and stuff but the three of us.
Still insisted on doing our last handstand! HAHA. it was freakkingnnggg coool!
HAHA. =DD kks. yeah yeah. ahaha. want to continue studying now! haha.
after that dance again! WeeEEe~~ haha kks.
Ciaos. TAG ME UP ARR! thank you tank you. tang u!

2008-04-17T22:02:00.003+08:00

MEN! I cant sleep! SHEESHH!
CAnt wait to study. to dance men!
I cant wait to go to the iLLers company men!
FREAK! I WANNA JOIN THEM! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
wait and yes before i go.. a last announcement..

ALL B-BOYS and B-GIRLS including HIP HOPERZ!
JOIN ME MEN! LETS BREAK AND DANCE! SHOW ME WHAT YA GOT!
AND WE SHALL MAKE A CREW OUT OF IT!
I got one outside. and they are. CHRIS,SYAFIQ,AFI and ME.
And My COOoLIo InsTRUcTORS! WHO I MET EM AND AS IF WE MET LONG TIME
AGO BEFORE. they are RIO (the one quite close to me,guide me along my break
dancing for the first time we met,hehe the best one,FAVED!),
WILSON (met for the first time,and intro as a cool buddy! FAVED!)
ETHAN (same goes to him, a guy who saw me doing handstand and say I
can break very well. FAVED!) WOoOOoTS!
THEY ARE COOLSSSSSsssSS. yeah fine i ciaos first. I high ar now. wanna dance only.
and study of cause. ^^
TC DANCERS, READERS and FRENEMIES... mUahHAHAH!

2008-04-17T19:20:00.002+08:00

yepss...
today was aite..
well in the morning. whole class got high!? zz. yeah.
heard a news that dissapoints me alot tho..
get to know the truth.. and was smart enough i got the right person in mind..
only some will know what im crapping about yeah.. haha..
well then..during sci lesson. haha. i jack Miss Lee up. haha.
I answer quite a few question rights and get sweets alot. alot of em,in a shot.
lol. was great tho then after get open eat. haha. =P
she didnt scold tho. lol. yeah after that assembly.. was great tho abt racial harmony
funny act! hahah..
well well.. time to head home after that. went back home with Afi,Nevin and Yao Yuan!
yeah crap and crap then they went to play badminton while i chill at home.
after a moment. ycube rang adn they wanted hang out at my place.
and there is where guai lan comes up! haha. the fun. lol.
they play winning eleven,i became their background sound effect which i find it
irritating myself. haha. =PP but it was fun. I didnt know why. But why!?
Did Nevin have to create a soccer player with a name called GUAI LAN!?
zzz then the hair blue colour like one kunyang like that!? zzzz.
haha. haishh. afer everything over. Went to jalan2 at TPC with Afi.
lol. was bored ahaha. so yeah. wakakak.
yeps.. well.. now still feeling low for a moment but im sure i can stay happy
to make my friends out there smile too! ^^ haha. nah. i will show that
i really kept my promise yeah! haha. kks. gtg now. =)
ByE2.
TC BACAs.

I got to know the truth,
Which Hurts the most.
But if he's happy.
Ill be happy for him.
Smiling*

2008-04-14T21:18:00.002+08:00

well yeah..long time no post..
well recently.. beatty idol. get to the finals won 3rd haha.
lol. its was nothing tho. haha. well yeah today..
in school.. noth much tho.. then went back home.. chill out for awhile
then went to popular.. saw Bryan there. chit chatted for awhile then off.
yeah.. then say Hisyam. haha. same chit chatted for awhile ciaos.
thenn... went back home with Kenneth.. the PSP partner of mine. haha.
yeah.. same chit chatted then cioas.. lol.
life's been great lately.. normal tho.. happy now i think..
i really think i should stick to my promise not to be emo no more. cause..
i feel ar.. the more i never emo.. the more i can study well and concertrate
on daily life..you know go on with my social surroundings and continue studying..
even tho im still in the [in love] state.. but guess ill only start feel [in love]
after school.. well after studies and stuffs.. then i can think about that everyday.
not during school hours tho.. haha..
hmm yeah.. i realised ive changed alot. not sure.. but tring my best to be better.
well yeah.. tomorrow is dance prac.
cant wait to go tho! haha. Cant wait to see RIO!! haha. ANd WILSON!
lol. my best intructors ever! haha. they are cool yow! first time see me.
then straight away we do hip hop handshake! ahha.. alamak..
im invited to join the illers company le!! wahhhhhh siaaa!
should i join!? i think i should! but must let streaming go first then can..!
haha thats what i told them then they say. no prob! we'll be waiting for ya! ^^
COoOOolIIooOO! haha. kks. shall ciaos for tonight. ill update everyday if possible.
trying to find a free time to update it everyday! haha ^^
cheers readerrs!
good night.. and take care..
:)

2008-04-06T14:48:00.002+08:00

hey everyone..
my life's been okay. lately. haha. yeah.
some fun stuffs happend few days ago. shall post it at my next post..
ahaah. now my post is to post about a post. yeah hahHahaha.
ZZZ i damn bored men,ok fine.. lets type what im feeling right now.
hmmm..
In LoVe! haha. yep2. =D
ok ok. crap lets type things out for fun.. But all about love. haha.

RanDom QuoteS!
I would rather be deaf before i hear you cry,
blind before i see you get hurt, and dead before i see you take away from me.

"Many people will walk in and out of your life. But only true loved ones will leave a footprint on your heart."

The true test of love: no matter how long you
two go without talking, he'll always find a way
back into your heart. no matter how hard you try
to forget him, you cant. (p.s: somehow like me.) hehe.

If you wanna prove your love and your trust give me your heart and I'll guide it with my life I promise. (p.s: I like this one men!!!)

Sometimes.. I Just wish.. I could be with the person i love.
To be the one he needed. To be the one he wants to be with..
To be that person's life that he wants to join..
sometimes i just wish... everything could be true..
and i wish i would finally hear him say to me.. that..
I love you.. (p.s: I love this one! The one i made myself. hehe)

No matter how wasted you think you are, or how everyone around you has it better than you, theres always going to be that someone special who will love you coz you're not like anyone else.

Ten years from now
if i see you walking
down the street, im
sure ill remember you
but the question is will
you remember me?

and last i wanna say is that..

I hope ill get the chance to be with you..
I hope i can be there for you..
I hope that you'll be okay..
But as long as you are happy,ill be happy all the way..

and now all i want is you.
ill wait for you. =)

haha. i suddenly today like so... HAIshhshshs....
yeah.. feel the breeze.. ok lah. i wanna ciaos. tag me de lah. thank you.
take care
~aYu~

2008-03-25T17:02:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!! (well the other half of the post is abt some other stuffs ar. abt sad LVE one.)
ok fine. haha my days and life been great. EXCEPT one catergory.
hahaha... yeah.. wanntinnngg tooo knoww whhooo.. thats all.
ok FINE. lets get back to business people! well well well.
yesterday was nice lah. haha Mr Yeo go play a video.
then ar.. got one part right. There's this chinese girl dont wanna kena
rape by the japanese right she acted like a boy. then ar.. the soldier keep
saying. KUNYANG ARRR KUNYANG! hahaha. I guess now the whole class know
my word CHICKUNYANG ar.. ahaha Must learn hor. HEHE. ok ok.
recently. Ms Loh told me got another dance competition. WAH MORE STRESS!
but ar.. dis time round I think i have to be more serious ar..
So this is my first time i rejected the competition. You know why!?
iits TIGHT! My schedule is fully tight until ENd of April. A busy month for me.
haishh.. first I got dance training.. then got camp. haish. then ar.
got annual parade. zzz then ar! then ar! EXAM! MUAHHAHA! haha..
nevermind i believe i can do well. well yeah.
it was ok. then.. but its ok. I can take everything slowly and nicely!
YES!!!
today! haha was superb fun!! HAHA.
Me and friends in school. went to rock on. first is HOME ECON. haha. we are suppose to watch the clip abt artificial flavourings and stuffs. but instead we look at the food the people eat rather than we listen to the clip haha. LOL. Then. Recess suppose to be from 10 to 10.30.
but we make it till 10.40! hahaa. WE all shouted like hell (including me) hehe
after taking class photo! haha. then ran down to the canteen still shouting!
hahaha =)) teacher didnt scold the whole class but instead she join us laughing. haha
lol. then ar. music time we like siao lo. Run there run here. Go band room then AVA.
and stuff. DO RE MI. zzz =_+
ok fine. haha. after that ar during PC right.. here's come the fun part!
haha. hehe. I cant believe whats wrong with me today. Im soooo open minded.
You know teacher was briefing us about camp just now. Then she told us.
Before any hike. Throw our bladder. zzz yeah then ar.. she told us a story she remembered during her Trip to Taiwan. zzz kks i shall tell you all. +DD
hehe i dunno who ar. but there's this girl. There was one time she was
at the shopping mall then she shopped for the last minute when they leaving in five minutes time. then ar.. after everyone go already. she say to the tour guide that she wanna go toilet. zzzz then ar. they very angry they say cannot. then they just went off like that. dots. after a while at the express way she cant control already ar.
then the bus driver and the tour guide say you take a plastic then do it inside. zzz at the back of the bus. haha. few mins later. she came back to the front. and she told them that nothing went in the plastic back cause its all over the place at the back of the bus. zzzzzz wth. then ar.. finish already ar. i suddenly say. cher at least guys can do it anywhere. but then if girls ar.. a little bit hard to aim ar!
WTF? i cant believe i said that. about sheshe-ing some more le.?!haha >.<
ok ok. then after for awhile ar.. we saw a bird making love just at the corridor of our classroom. and everyone went. OOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all the wayyyyyyyyy... zzz wth. our class ar. like what sia today. super nice ar. haha
tats all for today.. now the second half...

yeah.. life have been okay. family,only my dad who is making me pissed. friends,okay... and love life,sigh dont have to say.. lol..
ryhme sia. haha.. yeah anyways.. let me say this out...
is it wrong to love someone? is there any law saying you cant love that someone?
and this goes to my friends small sister. i think you can already think properly cause now you are primary 6 already. yeah.. ive been very nice to you lol. but...
if you to make fun about him again.. and say something that really pissed me off the hook... sorry lol. but i think your own sister have to go against you. im just saying.. not trying to fight or somewhat, but pls stop playing this 'Etn' with.
yeah i just dont like the way you make fun of his name...cuz it aint funny at all,its rude. yeah... but its ok.. i wont fight anymore..
just going on with my life following the flow even how sad it might be.. yeah... soso. well.. this is farewell for now. welcome on Friday.
hope everything will be fine when im back. hope so...
take care readers. ciaos..
~ayu~ the composer.
the joker =)
the uselesser. <<.<
fck...im just thinking too much..

"Loving and liking someone is different..
I began to love him from the new beginning..
But someone tried brainwashing me about him..
but all i could say is this..
if you know nothing about love,like,crush and admire. pls dont come to me
and start complaining to me..
aint gonna be brainwashed that easily.. cause i really love him...
so fish off.. heh.."

For someone that I hated since, from me. Idayu.

2008-03-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

haha long time never post nia..
heh.. recently.. some stuff been happening. lol.
but lazy to take note of it. haha..
well.. recently.. was...
WEDNESDAY, 12 MARCH 2008!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISYAH!!!
THE BESTEST FRIEND OF THE BEST AND THE BEST OF ALL.
haha shoutout: I LOVE YA MEN! HOPE WE"LL BE FRIENDS FOREVER!
Nothing can make our friendship apart!!!!!! We'll go every obstacles
together and smoothly men!
haha but actually his birthday comes first but nevermind..
This is the 'his' im talking.
WEDNESDAY. 5 MARCH 2008!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEN'ICHI!!
haha. shoutout: erm.. Hope you'll be more good looking than L a other movies cause
i cant take off my eyes from your hotness. lol.
SATURDAY. 8 MARCH 2008!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONG ZHI!!
haha. shoutout: that night was fun! hope to be with you again next time!
lol.
yeah........soooooooooooooo....
few days back. went to watch Horton with Chris and Zarra at Cathay.
lol. planned to watch Step Up 2 but fully booked. sadden.
so we went to watch horton. but it was a nice show tho. haha.
yeah. then recently.. been talking to Chris at night. He rang me up and say he was bored so yeah we chatted quite long.. zz =_=
yeah yeah. then at NDP training. Keshia brought along some new friends and
they were Jen,Jalean and Kyser! haha all of them were nice to be with! Haha!
Kyser! You still owe me the trade huh! haha! dont forget. Later when we meet up next week to play basketball. Teach me baby! haha =P
wakakas. yeah.. soso.
today was alright an okay day. lol. yesterday was magnifico. hah
me and my siblings were crazy last night its as if we are drunk! lol. =_+
zz hahask. wells wells. i think i should head off now. Dont wanna write more.
i scared someone wanna KpO about it.. haha. >.< zz jk jk. lol. anyways.
Ciaos! ~

P.S : Im glad that you are back!!! Miss you alot men... =)))))
LoVe Ya!
P.S.S : THANKS A MILLION CHER! I love you! =)
Hope to see you soon. Love ya lots! =DD

2008-02-28T21:46:00.002+08:00

well..yeah..
let me let evrything out..
well....Let me ask..why do our dream guy..the type of person we
want to have with us..is either far away from us.. or just our fantasy..?
yeah..ive wondered so many times.. ahha.. but just dunno why..
haishh... I think i wanna watch a leap of years..
see.. there's one weird thing.. there's 29 Feb this year...
surprising it will only happend again... after 3 years later..
wanna bet?? check your nearby calendar... heh.. i wonder who's birthday..
falls on this date.. that particular person will only get a chance to celebrate it..
on the real date after 3 years.. its cool actually...
heh..naru hodo.. yeah talking about this stuffs..
I realised.. Ive changed...alot...i became more quiet than last time..
but my craziness still doesnt fail to let go.. but it has reduce..
haha.. yeah.. i think once i became quiet..totally quiet.. i dont even
think my friends will realise i was there all along..
hah..i think disturb round i will only get pissed if someone plays with family name..
yep.. you betcha,argh,im just sick and tired of living this type of life..
I wish every single day that is coming will be very interesting,calm and pleasent
for the heart.. I guess my life dont..
well.. only think i could do to make my day like that is to sit down and here..some
relaxing jap music.. and remembering those good moments we had last time.. hahas..
but..sometimes when you think of everything back right.. it just bring you tears..
cuz how ou wish everything will be the same fine day like that day..
lol.. wah i suddenly today sound so emo.. haha.. no im not trying to be emo..
i just say it this way... sigh forget it..
Im going to miss someone..
this is for him : Hey pls come back to Singapore after
your overseas..I know thats for your work stuffs..But pls..come back..
ive never seen you for 4 straight years.. and i miss you badly..
i guess..you'll be leaving tomorrow.. good bye then... hope you'll be coming
back.. before your birthday.. =)
but i think..
from this years 29 Feb..
Everything Will Change.
..mata ai masho...

2008-02-24T19:18:00.003+08:00

YES! I KNOW. MY BLOG IS TEMPORARY DEAD! MUAHAH!
ok fine..im just lazy to blog thats all.. yawnzzz.
yeah. haha.. hm recently..
17 FEBRUARY,SUNDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELTON!!!
Shout Out: I know its a little bit too late to blog it out but then..
still ive already wish you so..no big deal. haha
18 FEBRUARY,MONDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ULFRED!!!
Shout Out: Haha. i guess we both forget out basketball meeting huh!?
19 FEBRUARY,TUESDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENSON!!
Shout Out: Ive No comments. haha.
ok so so on on..
yeah im super duper bored as usual at home sianning away.
but i tell you
23 FEBRUARY,SATURDAY..
YESTERDAY! IT WAS SPLENDID!
i went to watch L:Change The World..
haha. zzz. I fell in love with L..
haha... men. he is super duper terrific magnifico splendid fascinating
interesting temping one guy! haha.
hmmm lemme see.. lol. i just cant forget the whole movie..
men..darn..why good guys have to be always far away from us and hard to find..
haha... you can just put ten names on a list none can be one of the super duper
nice good guy you can find..haha.. lol..
well well well...look what do we have here...
ARGH!!!!! im stress!!!! stress about what.. huh?
lol.. SOMETHING YOU GUYS DONT WANNA KNOW! haishhhh..
what happend to me sia.. Im like so confused,stressed up!?
WTH WTF WTG WTS WTE WTR WTY WTI WTP WTO WTL WTB WTN WTM WTV WTZ WTA WTQ WTR WTH!
ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAcHooOOo! ... zzz =_= i guess because of my high body temperature ar..
ive been sick for 3 STRAIGHT WEEKS! can you imagine!?
haha lets make it one month! nono!
lets make it a 2. NONO!
HOW BOUT ONE YEAR!!? HJAHHA MUhHAHhHAhHAHHAHH!
ARGH WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!?
IM dead. DEAD. DEAddD. DeEeAAaaD.
DEATH NOTE MUAHAHA!
watashi wa eLru desu.. HAHAHA.
SHINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-16T16:30:00.004+08:00

yeah.. im finally back..
well.. yeah..
Wednesday. 13 January
Went to GYM in the afternoon.. Lol.
It was nice. But the nicer one is alot of handsome guys there.
One of them from beatty. wow. haha. look like someone i know
but probably he's a total graduate guy maybe now even in poly
or jc alr. haha. yeah..then went off home.
Thursday. 14 January.
HVP. lol. yeah. hmmm. Morning went off to SDC.
yep. was great though. haha. in the afternoon.
The guys came to my place. Afi,Nevin and Yao Yuan.
yeah. went to play PS2 like crazy yadayadayada.
Played Ultraman on PS2 with Nevin. LOL. totally crapppp. ahahahas
then went to play soccer lols. nice one tho...
yeah.. at night... nice one. Went to Esplanade play piano..
Then after that I went to Harry's Bar alone. Just walk in and grab a drink.
It was relaxing when you are alone with the jazz music playing at the
background. nice... too bad i didnt took any photos at there at night.
lol. but ive took some photos from the site. haha. basically
its just plain noth if you see it from the site. its like this.
the pictures are at the top,at the beginning of the post.
yeah.. soso. but when at night right. the light a little bit dimer.
haha. yeah.. nicer. lol. soso.
Friday. 15 January.
Annual Parade!
haha it was nice and fun of cuz! haha. well2.
Firdaus and Alfian Sir very funny sia! haha. they are cute sey.
haha. lol. the way they kena back the other school cadets lols.
haha. >.< wakakkaak. yeah. soso. hahas. then at night went J8 hangout.
Saw some cute stuff!!!! not some! but plenty of em!!!
HAHAS! lol.
Today. Saturday. 16 January.
ahas. well2... i just dunno why. but i started to love Jazz Latin
songs. those like The girl from Ipanema song..haha
cool.. lol. hehes.
yaya. soooo.. today. im at home alone again! YESS!
a jazz night for me men! haha. =DDD lol.
I shall chill out and draw or compose songs.
maybe more other stuff i can do. lol.
but tonight. i want it to be a relaxing one after a whole busy week..
yeah.. then later tomorrow. got religious class.. zzz =_= haha but nevrmind
lol. can see my teamwork pal Ridwan! ahaha and Naf! hehes
kkays. Ciaos. ^^

2008-02-12T21:25:00.000+08:00

yo sup everyone.
yeah.. in school.. 1 pair. and a group of boys.
I shall not name them. haha dont even bother to write also.
anyways yeah.. well those that are mention above.
yeah. Im a JUNIOR. not. A upper sec student yet..But that
does not mean im scared. and it seems there's an advantage there.
yet. I wont do anything if you guys just cant stop talking
about some stuff that can make me pissed off..i wont get pissed off
easily..But i guess now I understand why Wei Siang talk about respect
during NPCC. YES. AND I DO UNDERSTAND. Unlike some people out there.
They just dont know how to respect peoples privacy and secrets you
know. Im not referring to anyone unless you readers got the feeling
im talking about you guys. then its up to you to judge. but please.
I respect you peoples privacy and stuff. So please help me do the same
can? But..tell you all something. and let me repeat this again.
DO NOT EVER TALK ABOUT MY LOVED ONES AND TRY TO INSULT OR SOMEWHAT TALK
BAD ABOUT THEM. I dont tend to hesitate but ill just whack you up.
When I say NO. means no. but it depends on the situation. I might
be saying No. Just saying...not to hurt your feelings nia..
yeah.. so pls. i pretty beg you all.. just dont ever try..
to disturb me with the names of those people who i love ar. like
my family and friends all those stuff...
yeahs. ok. practice was cool enough. haha. then Afi,Yao Yuan and Aini.
Chill-out at my place. haha Afi got a new haircut. he looks cool!!!
lol. haha. nia nia nia. Ycube so blur2. haha. >.< jk jk.
anyways. sometimes right i wonder why....but its just that.
I LOVE DRAWING,COMPOSING SONGS AND DANCE mEN!! hehes. never to forget.
JAMMING!!! haha. I must bring my elec guitar later when going studio!
WooOO! wah.... cant wait to perform at the COMPETITION MEN!
lol. haish. alamak i outside now ar. needa go ciaos baby! lol
k lahs. Aang a.k.a Saphira a.k.a Kakashi a.k.a AYU! WooOOoO~~~
Take care Everyone!

2008-02-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

haha yeah... long post never update.. getting lazier and lazier
hahhaa,cuz...the more i type abt my life.. the more ppl want to kpo.
haha..yeah.. and yow,recently was Nicholas birthday. Specificly Nicholas Yeo.
not Hoe. haha. and yeah...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEN!!!!!! lol. i know its like late to wish? but nvm. On
that day got sms u bdae wish can liao. and...yadayada
well.. lately ive been only watching Avatar on the net and even watch Animax
when im bored. men... haha now watching Music Station live on animax. lol.
haha not bad ar.. this song Ultramarine by this some jap guy. men.. he's cute.
haha. f.y.i. for some of you out there. my religious class friends. yeah..
just STOP asking who i like. I wont bother to answer. cuz I dont wanna let
ppl know that its still the same. and yes. I am SINGLE. BUT. UNAVAILABLE.
nono. thats a fact. waiting. and liking it. so...tat someone..whom i dun even
know who... u treat me like hell,and ended up ask for stead with me? haha..
u got the looks. but no. let me be straight.... I DUN LIKE YOU. thank you.
cuz of your attitude if u ask me why... so yeah... dun bother saying sry..
cuz you've just pissed me off by using HIS name and MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY NAME IN IT!
Sry i dnt mean to be mean.. but.. u made me this way..especially..
when u make fun of my family name...Anyways...

This other half is continued now. Th eprevious other half was 9 plus entry.
this is 1 am plus entry. haha. men just came back from adventure. haha
super tired. but fun.. saw alot of things. but decided to post abt it tomorrow..
haha yawnzzz.. sleepy now. i shall off yow. Ciaos... >.<

2008-01-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

heys! Im BAcK!
Lol. yep2. Change my blogskin. Im not trying to be emo.
but the skin is perfectly cool so yeah. haha then I decided to have a nickname
that is either Smooth Criminal or Murderer! HAHA.. zzz noth much abt it
again thought it was cool so eyah.... Recently.......
16 of JAN to 20 of JAN!
16 JAN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MYXUAN!!!!!
SHOUTOUT: HOPE YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE AHEAD. HEHE.
17 JAN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BROTHER! AFI!
SHOUTOUT: HAHA HOPE YOU'LL GET TO SEE SOMEONE YEAH! ^^
18 JAN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAY CHOU! MY SO CALLED "LAOGONG" <<(sp?)
SHOUTOUT: I LOVE YOU DARLING! HEHEHES >.< (JK JK)
19 JAN.
............
SHOUT IN: errr...*cricket background*
20 JAN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!!!!!!!
SHOUTOUT: I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE DO!!! HEHES! MAMA HOPE
YOU'LL BE HAPPY ALWAYS ALRIGHT! ILL BE THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED ME MOTHER!
On this Night. I treat my whole family for a NICE DINNER ARD 12 am to celebrate
my MUM.DAD.JAYCHOU(HEHE).GRANDMA.and MY FUTURE BROTHER BIRTHDAYS!!!!! ^^
21 JAN to 23 JAN.
SILENCE OVERTOOK MY DAY.....
24 JAN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACK!!
SHOUTOUT: HAHA HOPE YOU WONT BE SO....IRRITATING.. HAHAH.
25 JAN.
HAHA ANNUAL PARADE! WOoOOoOOoooOOO!
It was supperb fun! haha. even tho tiring. was bullied by two CIs
One stole away my wedges with stupid deal by knowing my name..zzz
The other disturb us for not finishing our food. and eventually call me
shorty. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz =_= then after that when to J8 when
we met Shang Ming. HAHA. zzz.. wahhh... what reason should i say men!
I dunno liao..haha and you guys can stop teasing me alr!?!?
WTH!WTF!WTS!WTY!WTR!WTE!WTI!WTL!WTD!WTB!WTN!WTM!WTX!WTZ! you guys...
you know I ---------- who. so pls stop teasing me alr..Can..?
HAIsH! Kids...Now..A...Days....HauSSDdDDddttTTt!
26 JAN.
Hmmmmmm. Went to AIsyah House and crap all day long then went to play bball
alone at one of the court ard tp. (dun wanna mention where) yeah...
27 JAN A.K.A TODAY!
hmmm..the day started well then2 Afi drop by my place and crap alot abt bball and stuffs. THEN later Boh Hin drop by my place she took her bball back and
we went to play bball again,on my way there met someone. and that is Benson and Brandon. zzz. Both of them are Bs. Well then they went off..ZZZZZ
so played until 7 plus in he evening,decided to when home and STUDY!
haha history test tomorrow if im not wrong and english to if not mistaken,history
chap 2 to 3 ar??? then eng lehs? ahah. zzz study last min sia. zzz nvm.
Ill HAVE CONFIDENCE LIKE WHAT MR BOO HAD TOLD ME!!! MUAHAHHA! kks.
LOL. soso lalalalalala. and now.. I shall goooooo tooooooo
play.........my.........PSP!!!! YAY!!! LETS DANCE!
weeee ~~~ BUT! nvm.. I shall plan for tomorrow and the next day time table!
HieHIeAhiEAH! narukutelkutel betul! (^.^)

kks. tata. Good Night To My CrImInAL ReadErSssss...
MuRder MOre!

2008-01-15T19:09:00.000+08:00

hi everyone!!! ^^
Im back again with this cuter little thingy bloggy thangthang of mine!
hehes. ok ok. I shall post what Happend recently!! ^^
MONDAY> 14 JAN
hehes. it was a nice day,yep2. haha pretty fun!
well in the morning yeah normal stuff in NP all those stuff yeah
haha NP yang jing kena one big patch of muddy palm print at the middle
of his pe shirt! LOL. hahas yeah yeah then ars...skipskipskipskipskip
ok afternoon! hahaha yep2!
went for dance prac baby! yeah!! WooOOOo! We went crazy on the music room!
absolutely splendid! haha yeah. lol.
yeah lah dance a song by chris brown title kiss kiss. lol. got alot of
songs that we dance with lahs. haha yeah then...went home crap.^^
TODAY> 15 JAN
yeps. its nice today! haha yeah..first in the morning.erm yeah
HE we cook french toast! WOoOOoO! I cant believe i can cook that well!
haha jk jk nia. that one of cuz everyone can cook de. hah yeah
then yadayadayada. lols. erm.. soso. then afternoon was planning to
play bball alone deh. then i just ask mayb aini wanna come along so. yeah
haha she did. played halfway through my brothers call me up ask me to meet
em so yeah ahha. we played in the rain the four of us.
Me,Aini,Yao Yuan and Afi. haha ^^ cool orh! haha sadden we didnt take a pic
of ourslf with the raining background but I got take a pic with yao yuan
haha t level 25 when we kena PS by Afi and Aini. zzzz =_= noth better to do.
go take lift than drop theirselves at level 20 then go climb all the way to
level 25 back. zzzzzzzz. hahahaha. kks. then yeah they came to my place.
CRAPSSSSSS. ^^ heheeees. yeah soso.
Erm.. I shall post something tomorrow and the following day. ^^
kks. Ciaos. Watching Sweeney Todd now! Ciaos.
Take care Everyone!
P.S: ive changed a new song a soundtrack frm I Am Legend,i love it very much!
Just listen to what they sing even tho they kinda keep repeating it. LOL.
kks.

2008-01-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

YESSA! HAHAHHA! OOOoooOOK!
Hmm it looks like ive missed out some post!
Sooooo I SHALL! POST IT! NOW! AND LATER ONCE AND FOR ALL!
FRIDAY> 11 JAN!
OooOOK! MornIng was alright i guess...men was
pissed off in the morning but its ok..I hope my fren
and her can settle this slowly tho without hurting each other.=)
kks. Nvm. If you need my help ill be there as a friend. ^^
lols. yeah then afternoon got NPCC! haha was fun deh lahs!
No PT but then me and my gang decided to run! WakKAKakakKA!
hahas sry ar squad..didnt meant to force u all to run with us but our legs
are meant for running if we are not exhausted. haha yep2.
soso. thenthenthen went home!!
Didnt went home with sheila and aini haha father fetch me bah!
CUz My GRANDMA BDAE! hahaha ^^ then we go celebrate at the same time with my
grandma ba. haha yeah. soso.. ehem2. must speak professional english.
yes of cuz. and eyah..went home late reach home abt 1am? yeah. so
thats all for fri.
SATURDAY> 12 JAN> SEC 1 CCA OPEN HOUSE! ^^
Its was SPLENDID for sure! YEP!
haha it was great tho. yeah got one lady wanted to run away then call
Elton to help me! HAHHA THANX MEN! zzz i dunno why she wanna run away,
but still kena good lecture from Elton HHAHA! WOoO! KENA JACK! ^^
jk jk nia yeah then took a pic with May Lwin! ^^
Then with the booth group and the whole np unit! WOW!
I love the whole one! I want to ask Justin for it! He's phone got
i guess. lol. ^^
I shall post the pics soon!
kks. Then we went to tpc got CC and went to buy NARUTO STUFFS! WOooOO!
HAHAHS. yeah soso. then went to.......Ermmmmm...POPULAR!
hahahas. yeah went there to see a NEW COMIC RELEASE! I MUST BUY!
Its $8.50. then I got $20 plus. want to buy but i must save my money
for SOME purpose I think that person know what isit. haha. I must treat u
no matter what cuz it was a deal i made.. ZzZZzzZ! WOoOO! Ur BDAE oso cumin
dnt worry nia.. hahahha =D yeah!
hehes. soso de lahs.. Wa i dunno what to buy sia...zzz
MEN! haishhhhhhhhhh.. LOL. >.< what to buy what to buy what to buy!?!!?
MEN!!!!! ISHhHH...haha.. kks. must think. lol. its nearer alr.
WuW oks fine... I shall asked him once more! ^^ MUAHAHHA!
OK
SUNDAY> 13 JAN TODAY!
haha today was great at religious class in the morn. Then
afternoon Aisyah and Aini came down to my place and crappssss..
Yeahs hahahas soso de lahs.. Then Then Then.. Crap2.
All the way and NOW>>> IM ChAtTing! WooO! ALone At Home!
HAIshhhhh....... K lors.
okss then..I shall CIOAS for now!! ^^
kks. =D
Cheers Everyne! HAve A great daay!! TOmoRrRoWW!
Take Care Bye! =)

2008-01-10T20:10:00.000+08:00

today. was....vvv....SWAY. LOL
haha but i get to runaway from it.. You Know what!?
MY FRINGE! AND the battle Of The tUrBa!!N!! yeah lah!
AGAIN sia.. zzz haha the moment i turned my head ar!
he behind me and guess what he say!?
tUrBa!!N!! : YOU!! SEE! STILL STUBBORN DONT WANNA CLIP UP YOUR FRINGE AR!
GO STAND IN FRONT HOD ROOM NOW! IM GONNA CUT AWAY YOUR FRINGE!
Me : haha. ok. lol.
tUrBa!!N!! : ~walks away~
Me : WHAT THE EEEFFF!? ~pissed off~
zzzz.
Then Left me to wait for him for like 1 hour?
WT!? haishh.. haha. then i ciao. lol. zzz
wait so long then recess mileswhere go recess fill my stomach rather than
wait for him like a DUMB person rite? hahaha.
then yeah guess he forget abt me alr. LOL. thats a GOOD THING! ^^
fine then afternoon went tpc alone to library! WoOoOO!
haha relaxing sia summore raining then meet buddy aisyah!
lol. yeah crap along the way till home. =)
soso..then night time......ermm..
yeah..noth happened alone now. ^^
WooOoOoo! ok fine..
lemme say extra messages for some of you out there.
Aini : Erm,u dun have to be so emo de lahs. I need to talk to ya
regarding your guy. Feel free to call me. =)
Nicole : Heys! Thanx for the basic notes! I just need some
piano theory notes! so yeah its fine with me tho! Soso. my practical ok alr..
but just need some theory brush up.
Fali : Ehs Fali. haha jk nia. Dont run away from me alr de lahs.
I wont say wor. haha. >.< and i didnt really meant it tho.
I would rather say it to the guy that i like lor... zzzzzzzz. so yeah i dont like u ar..
Nick : Wassup with the syg ar??? You got stead alr go say that to your stead
not me ^^ wrong person de lahs..
Sheila : Erm yeah..haha. Dun be scared if u saw a crazy person looking at u.
Just imagine thats me! so u dont have to panic and sms me up haha. =))
Hayati : ....Arh..too Much pink wor..
Aisyah : Hmm! HAHA! thanks for lending me your music notes file. yep2.
Brushing up my music knowledge. haha so thanx yeah! =)

yeah so thats all. ^^
p.s : AR! I MISS PLAYING BBALL WITH U GUYS! =D
p.s.s : Im dancin and singing in the rain!!!! hehehehs ^-^

THE LONGEST POST. hahaha

2008-01-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

OK!
first of all........
HAPPY BDAE DAD!

hehes! Hope You are cheerful today at work!!
hehes! kks. ^^ Im sry but i donno what to get for your bdae,dad.
but then ill do what you what me to be aite! PROMISE!
Seriously. I think its better for us to go with the flow.
You see you guys still know that I still like 'him'.
but then whatever i do. ill concentrate on my studies and fulfill
my mothers expectations on me. ^^ hehes.
yep2. okok. In sch..hmm lemme see..what happened ar?
hmmmmmmm.... yeah..ok. in the morning,PE time. Wah!
I run the whole sch duno why this time not bad. i dont feel that tired.
BUT i sweat like HELL. MUAHHA. ahaha yeah lol. but yeah we did take
out heaight and weight as usal and yadayadayada. BUT!
again! I GREW TALLER BY 2 CM! isnt that magnifico!! haha Im 153 now!
ok. lame. only 153 and 2 cm taller oso wanna be happy like hell.
hahahas. no lahs at least I grow taller U KNOW.. lol.
yeah ok. play piano after runrunrun. soso. lol. ima piano addicter.
zzz wtfff?? i dunno what im crapping now. yeah haha.
ehs. i dunno lahs. then me with that girl okay alr,yeah trying to forget
whats at the past. like what shang ming told me. lol. kks. then
aiya.. nvm lahs..why yuhui always run away when she saw me? she either
hide her face or like turn her back towards me? zzz whatup with that?
lol. im not like angry with her or a kind of monster who dun like girls
like her and probably kill her rite? lol. cap. hehaha. zzz. well yeah.
ok fine.. then actually rite in the morning got 2 probs.
one outside sch and the oth between my friends. but the between my frens tat
one i get to handle myself in the situation to make it better. so yeah
prob one case over! Prob 2. yeah. abt someone. waiting for him to be okay.
zzz. must do something that can make him happy?! erm..thinkthinkthink..
ok fine. erm. mayb now rite. i try to settle stuff myself but im sure for
my age now i still need some advices lol. but ill try myself to do the best!
For My friends,My family,My teachers,and Myself! hahaha. ^^
kks. now now...studies. hmm off the hook and yeah. trying my best for the best.
love life? put aside,concentrate studies then if free time, then wanna
think abt love can go think until crazy.
entertainment. AFTER STUDY!! WOoOoOOoOooOoOoOo!
Its PARTY TIME! haha jk jk nia. kks. lol. hmm.. eyah.. in the afternoon.
haha went to sch library watch spiderman 3 with,aini,sheila,hayati,ruthra and
nurul (afi's younger sister) haha yeah. we crap there until e librarian
had to say..
"EH U ALL WATCHING OR TALKING AR?" and I had to ans...
"haha watching ar! the story very syiok ar yeah syiok. lol"
yeah haha. weeee~~~ then yeah recently afi and yao yuan came down my place.
We played XBOX and PS2. Yao Yuan seriously dunno what he was playing.
first he touched my PS2 then suddenly ask for my PSP then after that
when Afi was playing XBOX he ask afi to lent him the controller he want to play.
zzz hahas. oks lah. they very funny sia..I still remember ycube asked me.
eh Idayu "u friday oso go prayer?" then I blank. ahah "for guys only lah de."
hahhaa >.< he was so paiseh that time.. hahas. zzz afi just cant stop disturbing
him. lol.
lols. yeah then recently oso. been chatting with shang ming on the phone.
haha he told me something soso. thanx ar. ill try my best so.
haha yeah. soso. actually rite.. even the most meanest person in the world
can be very nice. haha. yeah have to thank jia hua for wat he smsed me recently.
lol. didnt expect him to reply liddat but. yeah...except one thing...
WHEN DID I CUT MY WRIST THE WHOLE DAY IN SCH AND EMO AGAIN!?
WHEN!? TELL ME WHEN!??!?!?!?!?!!? What!? U got spycam in my bag ar?!
wt!? hahaha seriously lah..ive quit doing those stuff long time ago alr..
lol. no more emo no more cut-O. hahaha ^^
yeah kks. NOW. hmm............. hearing to MY CHIPMUNKS singing. haha
i got three hamsters taht look like this three chipmunks exactly the same.
seriously their behaviours ar.. wah.. the same lahs! haha
^^ kks. lah i think to long alr de lahs... lol. and yeah...
this is for my friends.
EH YOU GUYS AR! I tell u! Dont think when i ask question like
"do you all really like me as a friend?" you all start saying whats wrong with me
lah say that i emo lahs. think too much lahs. i just ask..cuz mayb
i could change to the better! haha. =) yep2.
soso lahs. i stop here now. I think to much for blogging! LOL.
kks. Take Care Everyone!!
~~ GOOD NIGhT N OFF! ~~

2008-01-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

MEN! today was COOL.
haha in the morning went to school like normal days.
and yeah. NpCG(yang jing version) haha. ok crap.
erm. was cool. Me,aini,sheila and nurul took the basic
foot drills. yeah..and we took part time runner.
haishh...and yeah. after that head for class yeah.
soso..hmm andy change place! I got chance to disturb him!
WooOoO! Oks!
then yadayadayadayada....i dunno why,suddenly i love to smile.
i dont feel like i hate anyone. haha. =)
thats a good thing tho. well. hmm then in the
afternoon stayed back in sch to complete all the stuffs ive
need to. haha lol. then kena caught by MR SINGH AGAIN. for my
fringe.. haha.. lol
well ok lah. I do what im supposed to do. well well well..
men im very tired to blog now..I still feel uneasy men..
hope "you" ok by now..il be waiting for you. =))
bye take care ciaos.. ^^

2008-01-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAYS POST.
ARGH! PAISEH!
Shiat men.. haha today was WOoOOoOK!
hahas. ks. We Went to SCIENCE CENTRE! WoOOoO!
haha accompanied my bro go play simulator?
haha not sure of the spelling tho. wakakkaka.
then we go see the MUMMY Exhibit. (sp?) hehes
men ive forgotten how to spell stuff.. DAMN!
hahahas. nvm!! ok then arhs. i realised rite....
Ive GOT FEVER. zzz =_='|
yeah...and i got a sore throat. zzz men..its painful baby..
haishh.. yeah. haha. then then my dad bought for me
LAND OF THE BLINDFOLDED 4! WOOoOOOO!
now.. I have to save up money for Trinity Blood Book 6!
YEHA! hahaha. hahaha. kks. crap..
Well at night something worries me alot you know.
I guess now he can read my blog i cant put his name down anymore.
heheheees. well. i scared he angry sia.. ZZZ HELEEEEPPPP Me!
jk jk nia. nvm. I shall make him cool down then i talk to him
back. ^^
yeah.. today! haha. MORNING EVERYONE. its 9.49 NOW.
eyah. hahaha wake up in the morning cuz i think too much.
zzz. I guess I think too much. zzz
YEAH. ok. my throat is killing me and im half dead.
zzzzzzz because... hahaha. I want milo but my throat arh!
wah lO!. hahaha. zzz kks. fine. i shall post again IF
theres anything interesting happend today.
if not. ASTALAVISTA WAYYYYY.
=)
kks. ciaos. ^-^

FOR MY MUM.

2008-01-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

MuMmMy!
hehe. I write again for tonight because of what happend
in the afternoon just now.
I know you do read my blog sometimes oso haha. and i dun mind!
haha. kks.I very scared to tell u face-to-face so
Mum just wanna say sorry for what happend in the afternoon
didnt meant to do that. I was just exhausted from sch yeah..
soso hope you forgive me ^^
Take care! Bye i love you ma!
Ciaos. =)

2008-01-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

YEah! IM BACK! ahahas. lol. Ive received alot of complains
recently for not updating my blog. so yeah. hahaha Im gonna clear it
up once and for all! MUAHHAHAH! hahas. well. yeah.
lets start for.....
27 DEC - 29 DEC.
NPCC CAMP> YES SPLENDID. COOL!
hahah. yep. it was really tiring actually.
but then overall was great even tho ppl thought I emo halfway through
but that time because of i stomach ache cannot go toilet lahs. hahas.
thats why face liddat cu i wanna act cool de. hahahah ... ZZZ
kks. I cant possibly tell everything cuz that will be a VERY LONG post.
so~~~ I cut story short! WoOOoK! ahahas,yeah. camp...
All I love the most abt camp is...
Solo night.
Campfire.
The games.
and....The Second Night at Camp! hahahas.
WoOOoOOK! ANd I want to thank for the whole NP unit for the Bdae song. ahhas during campfire. kakas. alamak.. I very lazy to post what happend to every single of them lehs..
haishhh.. how ar..?
NVM>>> Wanna KnoW MORE. Pls Contact yadayadayadayada! hahahs.
men craps. ok fine.
30 DEC.
MY BIRTHDAY> SUCKS TO THE CORE. LOL. WAS ALONE ALL DAY.
yeah. "splendid" kks. I still remember who wishes me first and last.
First was.......
Kale,Yilin,Kenny,Aisyah on sms.
Sheila,Ariffah,Rauzanah,Aini,Elyeannie,Hanisah,Hayati on friendster.(ill try to recall properly.)
Elton.. On the phone at night. =D
Well have to thanx everyone who wish me. It was great tho I
expected someone to wish me,but that someone forget.
but no worries. Im used to having this type of birthdays. ^^
31 DEC> BORED TO DEATH TILL NEW YEAR.
zzz. yeah.
all the wishes yeah..what ever crap shit.
then...
1 JAN 2008.> FCUKING BORED.
sit at home all the waiting for tomorrow a new sch day.
yeah....
2 JAN> WAS OK. SCH JUST STARTED.
yeah first day of sch.Hyper and wacky.
was happy that chingna is back.
but guess and hope so she still remembers me. ahah
crap shit men me. CRAP!
kks fine...
3 JAN>
Noth great happend...Just plain old..
days. haha. but still energetic in sch.
was sad cuz jia hua ignored me as a freind lahs!!!
hahas.. dunno why.. but nvm..
well...
TODAY> WAS HAPPY AND A SAD DAY.
again. Was happy then suddenly in the afternoon
something happend...
Then I read a post on a blog that make me damn freakng sad.
but then nvm..Thats what u call life...
haishh...
well...Ive got no mood to blog now. haha. im not emo-ing ar now.
but...I think i should go..
Ciaos....

Met Some New friends!

2007-12-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

Yeah! haha today was great?!
haha. yep2. But before anything.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU!
Even tho I cant celebrate ahaha just wishing you all.
Yup. It was splendid. It all started in the afternoon.
I planned to play block catching at first but then Afi and Aini
cant make it so we played bball. Haha. At first we thought of bringin
Elton And Jia Hua along to play with us. But again. Elton couldnt make it.
and Aisyah said that no need to call Jia Hua down so yeah. We went.
So we decided to go to the bball court near beatty. haha yeah.
There was this 4 guys tho playing at the oth half of the court.
yeah we went and play per normal but then suddenly one of the guy called us.
Asking us to play with em so yeah. We agreed. Well theres only the two of us
and there's four of em'. And they asked us for a match? haha. ok fine.
then they say split into. 3 vs 3. HAHA. ok heres come the fun part!
haha when we play they actually guide us along through the game.
It was nice. and they play quite cool you know! Their tricks and stuffs they do!
haha reminds me how i played bball with Elton and Jia Hua they all. zzzz
hahaks.but it was cool. After all the fun we had. Had to head home.
Well before we went home. I asked for their numbers of cuz. well Im not
flirting for sure!!! Anyways I like someone alr..zzz and dun like to flirt!
remember! I DUN LIKE TO FLIRT. Doesnt mean i laugh and play or joke ard with em,
it means I flirt! NO WAY! ANd THIS IS THE MEANING OF FLIRT! GET IT RIGHT!
flirt /flɜrt/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[flurt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–verb (used without object)
1. to court triflingly or act amorously without serious intentions; play at love; coquet.
2. to trifle or toy, as with an idea: She flirted with the notion of buying a sports car.
3. to move with a jerk or jerks; dart about: butterflies flirting from flower to flower.
–verb (used with object)
4. to give a sudden or brisk motion to; wave smartly, as a fan.
5. to throw or propel with a toss or jerk; fling suddenly.
–noun
6. Also, flirter. a person who is given to flirting.
7. a quick throw or toss; sudden jerk or darting motion.
ok. I dont like playing or fooling ard abt love...so..yeah i dun flirst. back. then after that they say to call em if we wanna play bball again ahaha,then of cuz i say ok.
haha,seriously, one of em look like Noh our last year SI. ahah
and the other looks very familiar. ahah. And the one look like Noh
is the one who teams up with us! hahas.
kks. Overall i guess thats my present for christmas? haha well
cuz all of em were damn cool. haha lol.
ok. fine. and yeah new blogskin! WoOOoOoOOoO! ahahha. Cool
thanx men Naruto! hHAha. =))
kks Ciaos.